- Posted August 24, 2013 by
Winter Haven, Florida
This iReport is part of an assignment:
Bullying in America's schools
It's not just the bullies...
On my first day of school I was pushed off the bus and into the mud. I was picked on for being fat and ugly. Everything from my clothes to my toes has been targeted at some point. I hated going to school everyday. I was so scared. It was mostly words with an occasional shove here and there. I didn't really fit in anywhere. The last kid "picked" in GYM class? Not me...I was forced onto a team by the teacher after both teams declared they would rather be a person short than have me.
My mom tried to help by talking with the teachers and the principals. It didn't work. Some said they didn't see a problem and others would say that I was the one causing the problem. Occasionally, a teacher would step in and "make" us get along and work together as a group. This was good. For a half hour while we worked on project, I wasn't just the ugly fat girl, I was the ugly fat girl with some good ideas.
Fast forward...I am an adult. I am morbidly obese and suffer from extreme anxiety (my fault). I am very self conscious and have no self esteem. I am very fortunate to have a wonderful husband and son. My son is 5 and the light of my life. I was told several times while pregnant that he wouldn't make it. He ended up spending 7 months in the NICU before being able to come home vent, trach, and feeding tube dependent. He endured a lot during his time in the NICU. Numerous surgeries and procedures, even open heart at 2 months old. I know that if my little guy can handle all of that, he can handle anything...I just pray that being picked on is not one of those things that he will need to deal with.
I wouldn't wish that on anyone!