- Posted August 26, 2013 by
This iReport is part of an assignment:
The written word: Your personal essays
Journey of a hijaabi. An attempt to inspire struggling muslim women.
Bismillah hir rehmaan nur raheem.
In the name of ALLAH, the most gracious the most merciful.
Since I have been asked to share how I turned from being a temporary hijaabi to a permanent hijaabi now ALHUMDULILAH I decided to come up with an article and to share the series of events I went through in detail.
Firstly I would like to clarify I am not an extremist as at times when I have been questioned about my hijaab, people thought I was posing my decision on them and expecting them to agree when I answered. I would never force my opinion on anyone neither do I judge others opinions, I completely believe in everyone having freedom of choice and life. :)
Now beginning with my hijab story, I had spent my childhood and almost my teenage life living in middle east so it was a daily ritual for me to watch hijaabi and niqaabi women around me and to my knowledge until this year my perception about hijaab was just a cloth on womens head to conceal men from looking at their hair. I wore hijaab for the very first time when I was in grade 3. I barely knew what was the importance of hijaab and my decision was merely because of the surrounding I lived in. Since then I used to wear hijaab at certain places and suddenly when i hit my sweet sixteen I started reading quran with its translation and thats when everything changed. The way I looked at things, think about them, just thinking about every single thing. If placed a half glass of water onto the table, the pessimist would think its half empty and the optimist that its half full but during that time what usually crossed my mind was where did this water come from? How amazingly does it depict a light blue layer at its top while being transparent as a whole. SubhanALLAH. This is how I started to read more and more about my religion.
A very common quote all of us come across on different islamic sites and pages which is 'Hijaab is to protect muslimaahs'.(Indeed I cant agree more to this now.) So just as I pondered about everything day and night, this quote really drowned me into several thoughts. It helped me to relate as to how I felt when I used to wear hijab and when I dint. It helped me feel hijab, feel as in its a part of my body. It is not about oppression but freedom from evil eyes and not only freedom from evil eyes but saving you from sin as well as others. Masha ALLAH this is how ALLAH wants us to live, to live in peace, tranquility, satisfaction, harmony. Hijaab saves you, it protects you, it guards you, it changes you and by this I mean when I wore hijaab i was more concerned about what clothes I am wearing rather than when I dint wear hijaab. It gives you a sense of guarding yourself, you just automatically start worrying if you are wearing proper hijaab, ur neck covered, wearing appropriate clothes, the way you talk, the way you sit, you become more concern about the sins you commit etc. SubhanALLAH that is why it is said hijaab is not just a piece of cloth on womens head its a way of life. It strengthens your bond with ALLAH and slowly and gradually you start thinking about what else you can do to make it stronger and ALHUMDULILAH this decision of mine completely changed me. It was not easy at first but Alhumdulilah ALLAH helped me, ALLAH helps everyone striving for good.This journey begins with lots of hurdles and difficulties. You might come across people who would question you, degrade you, expecting you to be an angel on the spot you start wearing hijab but sigh if they knew you dont reach 100 until you go through 1,2,3 ...This single step changed my life, it brought me closer to ALLAH, it gave me strength to make more steps to better myself and to stop myself from committing sins. And there was I happy as ever, satisfied as never. I could feel it, I could feel the value of hijaab. All those things that used to worry me made me feel happy like the extra amount of heat you feel in summer makes you feel good when you know that wearing hijaab might save you from hellfire which would be a thousand times hotter than this heat , the fear that people would question you, ignore you, kick you out of the circle would vanish when you know that you are doing this for ALLAH and that its between you and Him, when you know that all these people for whom we think 'would they like me anymore?', wouldn't be there to answer my questions on the Day of Judgement so they dont matter to you. That self satisfaction you get knowing that just by wearing hijab I am pleasing my Lord the one who created me and everything around me and without whom we are absolutely nothing and that you are in a state of worship and earning sawaab the entire time you wear it. Masha ALLAH how blessed women are.
Hijab is the dignity, its a muslimahs right and it should be her choice.