- Posted August 26, 2013 by
Life was Bliss
I am not sure who this will reach but I need help.
Who am I? My name is William and the first 20 years of my life were incredible. In my eyes I used to have all anyone can ask for, an awesome family, great friends an amazing girlfriend and I was REALLY in shape! In High school I was bullied a little bit but I managed to get by. I was never really popular until I started going into my community college where I really started to mature and really learn to charm (or at least try to) anyone I came across. I was on the MCC (McHenry County College) tennis team. I participated in after school debates and I worked out religiously! So much in fact that I was addicted to it I worked out almost everyday, if not twice a day. I was tired of getting picked on in High school so I worked my ass off to finally get respect and heck even some enjoyable attention from the girls. I never got that stuff in High school. I had 2 girlfriends in the first 2 years of MCC that was 2 more than high school (unless you count the week long freshman fling I had in which I was dumped before I got a first kiss ha-ha) but none the less I'm just trying to build ya a background here so stay with me. I was now living the life I always wanted I was invited to all the parties I knew everyone. There wasn't a chance at fun I would ever pass up. Nothing scared me I was a rollercoaster fanatic, I loved playing sports. I just loved living life to the fullest.
The last 3 years of my life have been nothing short of a nightmare that I can not wake up from. I haven't had a girlfriend in almost 3 years now. Most of my friends have seemed to move on without me. I am no longer in amazing shape as I have not been able to pick up a beloved weight in a long time. I am unable to finish or even attend school anymore. I no longer play any sports. I rarely go on any rollercoasters. Every single thing in my life is being ripped right out of my very own fingers.
What is the problem you might ask? "Nothing" is exactly my problem. Let me explain. About 3 years ago I was in a world religions class. I was listening to a usual lecture when all of a sudden I felt a sudden JOLT in my chest. I had to almost gasp for air. I had never felt anything like this in my life before. I immediately stood up and walk out of the classroom for a breather. After about 15 seconds the feeling went away and I calmly walked back in the classroom and didn't think much more of what happened. I continued through my normal daily routine and went to work out after class. I felt ok until I went to rest after the workout and I had the bad feeling again but this time worse. I then called my Mom and she recommended I go to the hospital. After going to the hospital I had an EKG checkup on my heart and a couple of other tests. After about 3 hours in the ER the nurse came in and told me and my Mom that everything was fine and there was nothing showing up on the tests. She recommended that I drink a lot of fluids relax and get some rest, and follow up with a cardiologist. That jolting feeling continued to be a random issue for the next month on and off. I finally saw the cardiologist and he did a thorough workup with stress tests so on and so forth. All test again seemed to be "normal". The cardiologist then suggested I see a Electro cardiologist. After a month later and two more emergency room visits I saw the other cardiologist. He suggested I may have a "mis-firing diode" but in order to fix it they would have to go into the heart and fry or freeze the diode causing the issue. This really worried me because I didn't know what to expect from this procedure.
About another month passed and I hadn't worked out in a while so I was ready to get this procedure done with. After getting all the "good luck assurance" from friends I was put to twilight. I remember this fully because they said I couldn't be put asleep because they needed to pace my heart. This procedure was extremely uncomfortable as I was put on my side and the doctors speed and slowed my heart rate. After coming back out off the meds I was on during the procedure, I was hopefully that my problems were over. It turns out they had only just begun.
After the procedure was done I was told by the doctors that they had not "found anything while in there". This really upset me and my family. We were under the assumption that the whole reason why went in my heart was because they already detected an issue before hand. After going home that night I felt pretty hopeless, like this issue would never be cured.
Months passed again and I had been told to just "deal with it" by breathing properly. That was no help at all. We then went back to the doctor again and he said he was out of options. He suggested we visit the Mayo Clinic. I wasn't aware of what this place even was at first, but after reading about it, it seemed like a wonderful place. I read all about people who couldn't get health issues addressed that go there and "find answers".
I'm sorry but the page I'm typing on seems to be having technical issues. I am an avid follower of CNN and it just dawned on me to reach out to you guys and gals tonight. I really need your help. This is a long story and I really need to share it with someone as it seems my choices in life are coming to a close and I really need help. On the outside I am fine but on the inside I am suffering more than imaginable.
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