- Posted September 13, 2013 by
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Your 'Aha' weight-loss moments
Believing in myself was the first step to happiness!
It’s the morning after I got a call saying I didn’t make season 3 of Extreme Weight Loss. I woke up feeling let down and disappointed. But I really looked at myself and how far I had come so far. There was no turning back; I wasn’t going to look back. This is my life and I was ready to start living again. I knew I had support from so many, but I also knew I was on my own! I didn’t have Chris Powell in my house, food paid for me, boot camp, etc… I had myself and that voice in my head that was still trying to tell me I wasn’t good enough and this was going to take way to long, so why even bother! I quickly told that voice to shut up I had something to prove, not only to myself, but to ABC for not choosing me. Do I know the reason they didn’t, no, but I knew when the year was up I was going to make then regret not choosing me!
At this time I was getting real close to 100lbs down, I was able to move more and for longer. I began to run a little bit and even decided to take up a class at the Y called CCB (Contact Cardio Boxing) or Kickboxing as I like to call it. I was being super strict on my diet, making sure I was logging everything I eat. Looking what was in different foods at the store almost became addicting. I even had my mom doing it. We would go to the store together and the first thing we do when we grab something is look at the nutrition facts and ingredients. I realized as I went on how important food was in my journey. It wasn’t just about working out. It was about what I fueled my body with. I would try to cut calories one week to lose more, but I realized I wasn’t having as much success on the scale! It is true that your body needs food to properly work!
As I continued on my journey, on top of working over 50 hours a week I was helping run a t-shirt printing business. These things took up tons of time, but I still found a way to workout 6 days a week. This was my year and I didn’t care about anything other than kicking butt!
Things were going pretty decent, but I just wasn’t having the numbers I wanted or the intense workouts I’d hoped for. I wanted to change it up and do different things. Well, sometimes you get what you wish for! I was talking to a local trainer, who my sister was meeting with once a week. She wanted a logo designed for her business and shirts made. So as I was designing and we were discussing prices we just decided on trading some training time for the time I spent on the logo. We started meeting on Saturday mornings at the local park. The first workout was BRUTAL!!! It was on this huge hill and it brought back old football memories. She had me doing everything but drive up and down that hill. I’m not the only one thought I was going to kill over, she did too! After that first workout she eventually told me she didn’t know if I was going to come back…. But I did!! She then told me I wouldn’t have to worry about paying, ever! What came over me when she told me that was indescribable. I knew this was going to be such a HUGE part of my journey!
As we started to meet more and more, my mom started joining me when she could. She also would go to CCB with me and walk. She decided to start her journey as soon as I got home from finals week in LA. Jakae and I were meeting sometimes 5 even 6 days a week. I was working out 2-3 hours a day. Of course I was missing out on some things, but it was my choice. I was focused on me!
I look back and remember hitting that 150, 175, 200, 225, and closing in really close 250lbs lost! It is such an amazing feeling seeing changes in myself, not only physically, but mentally! Jakae was having me do stuff I didn’t think I could do, she was pushing me and making me believe in myself! I don’t look at her as a trainer anymore, but a friend! She is stuck with me forever! :)
I have so many people ask me about how I lost weight and what I did. Yes, I was sooo lucky to have Jakae pick me as a client, but like she says, she didn’t do the work, I did… It is great to have someone there to support you and push you. There are so many outlets for people who can’t afford a trainer. Of course I can’t meet with Jakae all the time, so that why I started taking classes. It doesn’t matter what fitness level you are at, there usually are classes for everyone at a lot of gyms.
I can say this so many times, Believing in yourself is the first step to happiness! It is sooo true! Yes, I have worked my butt of (literally) and changed my lifestyle, but it all started with me believing in myself! We have this amazing thing called LIFE! You do not want to sit back and watch it pass you by! When I think back to what I was missing out on and how I felt then I get upset I didn’t change sooner!!
I am now living life and doing things I haven’t done in a long time. It is such an amazing feeling and I hope If you are reading this and on the fence about starting or not that you choose that your life is such an amazing gift and you do deserve HAPPINESS~!!
I have been blessed with the people in my life! Also blessed with some opportunties I have been given. I have been able to share my story on an internarional level thanks to Extreme Weight Loss. They put together a video of me as a person who didn't get chosen, but changed on his own. This was posted on their facebook page, also I had an opportunity to do a promotional video for a company that makes some amazing products that I took during my transformation. This has given me the opportunity to reach out to millions and show them that it can be done!! I just want to motivate in inspire people!!
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