- Posted September 25, 2013 by
This iReport is part of an assignment:
Your 'Aha' weight-loss moments
"If Only" did not help me lose over 200 pounds
But I know what motivates me to keep off the weight. I know what motivates me to fight every day to never be morbidly obese again…
Six years ago I was standing in my kitchen at home. I was over 420 pounds and I hated my job. Because my back hurt all the time I would sit down a lot at work. I sweat a lot. I worked hard, but it took me much longer to perform functions a smaller person could do. Hence I was considered lazy. I wanted to quit but knew I would not be able to find another job. I looked and there was nothing out there. Plus, I did not have a lot of confidence in myself at that weight.
So I thought about trying to go for disability. My thought process was if only I could stop working and get healthier I would have a better life.
If only I could lose the weight I would be able to change my life.
If only I could eat better and not get tempted by everything around me.
If only I could get a trainer to help me.
If only fast food restaurants would close down.
“If only” kept me at 400 pounds for some time. “If only” is not reality.
And the reality was that I would not be able to go on disability. The reality was life would not stop for me to take a weight loss break.
So I started to eat better while working. I started to work out without a trainer. It was hard every single day. I will never tell people that weight loss is easy. It is hard to be proud of losing 50 pounds only to weigh 370 pounds. It is hard to have to lose over 100 pounds to finally be able to buy clothes at the mall instead of a big and tall store. It is hard to lose 200 pounds to still weigh over 200 pounds.
But it is worthwhile.
I lost over 220 pounds. People ask how I did it and I wish I had an answer that worked for everyone. There are so many different things I did. I ate less, I worked out, and I changed the way I ate.
Honestly, when some people ask me “How did you lose weight?” I wonder if they are like me. I wonder if they are asking “What did you do to lose weight that is easier than what I am doing now?” Nothing was truly easy.
But when I lost the weight jobs were not flying at me. I still did not have any money. People were not dying to interview me.
But sometimes weight loss is not only about the person losing weight…
I have two beautiful kids. When I was over 400 pounds my wife and I did not think we were able to have children of our own. Adoption was hard because of my weight. Then things happened for a reason and in 2009 after I lost the weight we had a child. We had a second this year.
My kids to not know the 420 pound man I once was. They only knows the dad who works out and eats fruits and vegetables. My son wants to be like me. I am okay with that now.
You never know what tomorrow will bring, but doing positive things in your life makes it easier. I cannot live a life playing Russian roulette with my heart and cholesterol. I need to make the impact today.
So what is my “secret”?
I refuse to choose food over my kids.
They deserves better.