- Posted October 7, 2013 by
This iReport is part of an assignment:
Bullying awareness: Your story
Dealing with Bulllying from 10+ years ago
That 'I was ugly when I smiled and that I shouldn't smile'.
That I needed a nose job because my face was ugly.
Then I was made fun of and lost many other "friends" because I got one many years later.
Some "friends" told a camp counselor about my nose job, who hated me and had made me cry before in front of other campers.
She then went on to tell the entire camp by the end of the week.
I could go for 1-2 weeks often without anyone speaking to me at all at school. I was either invisible for made fun of.
Teachers would do nothing when other kids made fun of me. Even if it was a whole class room.
I've had the feeling too many times of walking into a class room, knowing that everyone was just talking about you and you don't know why.
I was always made to believe there was something wrong with me and I was not worth anyones time.
That I was stupid and ugly.
That those who did tell me what was "wrong with me" were just being honest.
When I suffered anxiety attacks due to bullying, I was told by adults and peers to "get over it" since I was "doing it to myself" and there was "nothing wrong with me.
It's taken years of therapy to understand that all of this is not right.
These are just a small number of my stories. I hope that future generations change the way they treat each other.
I was always told success is the best revenge. I've worked incredibly hard for the things I want, and now I know I've made my mark for who I really am in this world.
One day I hope to work with youths who are being bullied and help them see a healthy way to deal with it.
Until then I will continue to prove to myself that I'm worthy of the life I've always dreamed of for myself.