- Posted December 16, 2013 by
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Your 'Aha' weight-loss moments
Living Fat in Loreto
I have so many people ask me “How did you do it?” My answer in my mind every time is “I have no idea how!” I have struggled with losing weight for all of my adult life. There were times were I really didn’t care how I looked so I didn’t think about it much, and there were times that I would cry myself to sleep over it. I have been thinking about it a lot lately because I am only 15 pounds away from my goal weight and with so many supportive people in my life I really want to give a good answer to this question. I want to be able to say this is what I did, this is how I thought, and these are the people who helped and inspired me. When I look back at all the times I tried and failed it seems that I always let life get in the way and I would make other things more important than myself. My family, work, school, friends, or even just that I am PMSing and I deserve to eat the whole box of Oreos tonight. The difference that I found that made this time a success is Me. I am the difference. I had absolutely no excuses this time. I wasn’t working. When I first got here there were very little bad choices I could make when it came to food. My son was old enough that I didn’t have to spend every moment with him worrying if he was getting into trouble or getting hurt. So, with no more excuses to keep me saying no I had to say yes. I said yes to join Zumba. I went the first day and looked absolutely ridiculous with my 250 pound body trying to keep up but there were only a few in my class and my wonderful instructor Erika really made the class fun and really encouraged me the whole time. Before I left she said to me “See you tomorrow!” I have gone to Zumba everyday she holds class. Monday through Friday for an hour a day I drag my butt to class because I am expected to come and I have no excuse not to come. She still says to me every day “See you tomorrow!” I love it and I absolutely love when I see new people come in wanting to do what I have been doing and I feel so proud that Erika will introduce me to the new people and tell them my story. I feel amazing knowing that I could be the inspiration that this person needs to reach their goal. When it comes to food that was the biggest challenge for me. I love food, especially sweets like cookies and cake and chocolate. Unfortunately, so does everyone else in the house. I would make dinners that would be fish, with fried okra, pasta, and bread. These are things I love to eat in excess. I found it really hard to eat that though after I worked so hard in Zumba that morning. There are so many fresh fruits and vegetables here we always had them in the fridge. So, I would have the fish, I would also make a small salad to go with it. I had no excuse not too the salad stuff was right in front of me. When I got praise from the people around me about how wonderful I was doing and how great it was to see me so committed it inspired me even more. I know people say to throw away the scale and I am sure that works for some, but I got inspiration from my scale. Yes, I couldn’t stand the number that came up when I stepped on the scale, but I loved seeing that number go down and it seems to give me confidence for the day. If the scale went up I would know exactly why. I knew that I ate things I shouldn’t have eaten the day before and I saw what it did to the scale when I ate 5 cookies. I would then make up for it that day knowing that I needed to get that number back down I resisted the urge to eat another 5 cookies that day and I saw the results on the scale when I ate healthy. I also didn’t focus on the amount of time it was taking me to lose. I just went day by day. On average I would lose about 10 pounds a month. The scale would go up and down but I would not dwell. I accepted what it was and reacted accordingly. I don’t deprive myself of things that I want. I just know there will be a consequence if I go off track and I either say yes I can accept it or no I am not going there and I move on with my day.
Today I am down 90 pounds. I have never been happier or more proud of how I look. I can’t say I am the thinnest I have been but I am the happiest about how I look than I have ever been. I still have a bit of a belly but I no longer despise it. I don’t even give it a second thought anymore. I do what I can everyday to live a happy and healthy life for me. It shrinks little by little and someday it may be gone but if not that’s ok with me because I know I am doing the best I can with no excuses.