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    Posted December 30, 2013 by
    Wets Chester, Ohio
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    Does marijuana help you?

    Maybe Its Me ?

    I turned 54 this year and I am living life in bubble. I have smoked the equivalent of a joint of high grade marijuana joint a day for the last 15 years with no one knowing. I have kept my secret all these years and I have zero regrets about my decision. While for some who have reached conclusions about my life I'll quickly run down my last 30 yrs. I grew up in a middle class family, never finished high school, married at 22, had three kids early into marriage, drank a lot of beer. Alcohol for a type A personality generally ends badly and it did for me. Alcohol controlled everything within and about my life. I never managed to move my life forward in those years and never made more than $35,000 a year during that time. After having had an epiphany of sorts, one day while looking at a worn version of me in the mirror I knew I needed to quit drinking. I worked on it for weeks and gradually I escaped that grip. I will be forever grateful for having had the strength to do it. I raised three beautiful girls with brilliant minds and generous hearts. I am grateful as well that they have seen past my many years of alcoholism and formulated sound decisions regarding their own alcohol consumption. When I stopped drinking, my life path was immediately turned and I began to feel more confident, motivated and and determined to use my God given talents. I worked for about four years for an employer before setting out on my way to self employment. I seeded three companies starting about 15 years ago and each has done well. I recently sold a business I started the year I stopped drinking for seven figures, life for me is really OK. I stopped drinking alcohol 15 years ago and smoked marijuana instead and I have managed to achieve a life worthy of envy. I came from a family of alcoholics who today struggle with an addiction the cant see, which is what its designed to do. Adolescents see its influence at home, at the stadium, all over TV, and in some church festivals. Knowing what I know about this issue, I suggest we take a closer more responsible look at this "drug" as a road to somewhere as opposed to the wildly accepted knowledge of alcohols destructive road to nowhere. I kept it to myself and from my kids. I believe my choice to choose pot over alcohol made me hide in my decision. Because of my decision to closet my smoking, I managed my anxiety, mood swings, and kept its influence from my kids, all good things. Would I buy it retail, sure. We "fear what we don't understand" lives long in the US but you can see that changing. Keep your adult arrays from children and manage your curriculum accordingly and we'll all survive. I have smoked daily for 15 years and haven't died, been arrested or failed in my family responsibilities nor fallen under the knife the a debilitating alcoholism. To each his own but maybe its me.

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