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    Posted April 7, 2014 by
    Toledo, Ohio
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    Changed your mind about marijuana?

    Healing Bipolar

    I’m going to be completely honest and tell you that for the first time in my life I am a criminal. If I was merely twenty miles down the road I wouldn’t be. I am a criminal in Ohio because I use Marijuana. I suffer from bipolar, migraines and fibromyalgia, with all these imperfections I have symptoms that have not been eliminated or aided by anything except Marijuana and I hadn’t touched the stuff sense I was sixteen. I wasn’t even as passionate about it when I was sixteen, but then again I was uneducated on the subject matter.
    When I was personally dealing with my issues (Bipolar disorder, migraines and Fibromyalgia) the medical industry had me on tons of different psychosis medications, anxiety medications and pain killers. Throughout the following four years, and hideous side effects, I was either immobilized or a complete zombie. The worst was my inability to focus on my work. As an amatuer screenwriter I couldn’t write a line sometimes to save my life. And it took me nearly three years to complete 30,000 words in my creative non-fiction book. I turned to an offer from a friend to try marijuana again for my ailments.
    I began to research the medications they had me on for bipolar and the pain killers they had me on for Fibromyalgia and Migraines. There were so many cases of deaths from these medications, so many years of life they take away from you, there are an estimated 18,000 premature deaths per year from these medications. So many lives destroyed from overdosing on these medications, nearly 15,000 people die each year from pain killer overdose. Drug overdose was the leading cause of injury death in 2010 among people 25 to 64 years old, drug overdose caused more deaths than motor vehicle traffic crashes. These are the medications that our doctors were handing us to merely mask the pain.
    I turned my research to Medical Marijuana – not one documented death, not ONE. I couldn’t believe it that this natural herb had no deaths and has been used sense 3,000 BC for medical purposes but was illegal. Not one research study that could give any kind of long-term negative effects from Cannabis usage. I began to use it regularly and within one month I had 30,000 words rewritten in my creative nonfiction book, I had to trash the 30,000 words I had written prior. I rewrote and finished my latest screenplay all within a few months. But to use this medicine right now I could go to jail.
    It not only calmed my anxieties, cured my headaches, took nausea away but it was taking all my bipolar symptoms away and I was able to focus on my work. It soothed the mood swings from my disorder and I was in a better mood. I do get funny looks from those who know I use Marijuana for medication, it was the best alternative after one thought, “it has been used sense 3,000 BC for medical use but there is not one documented case of death from its use, not one life has it taken away.” Those are phenomenal statistics, who can argue with that?
    I noted that when I would get different strains of the medication it targeted something different. Depending on the strain that I received, sometimes it would make me tired while other times it would it would give me energy and focus. It seems if research were freely permitted in America we would know which strain helps which ailment and how it needs to be administered. As we all know sometimes smoking it is best, while other times eating the cannabis oil eliminates other disorders.
    Thanks to there being no medical marijuana in Ohio I must stop using it and go back to the regular pain pills that will eventually kill my liver. I will also have to get back on the psychosis medication that had once turned me into some kind of medicated zombie, if I do not I will not be able to have my kids. It sickens me to no end to know that I have to take these medications that kill so many people as opposed to medical marijuana that doesn’t make me feel like a zombie and calms all my symptoms and in the long run is healthier for me. I guess we are bad parents if we would rather use something that has more benefits and less harm than western medicine that has hideous side effects and kills thousands annually.
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