- Posted April 8, 2014 by
fort jackson, South Carolina
This iReport is part of an assignment:
Salute to troops
Depression and Anxiety in the Military
I will be in the military for 8 years in October 2014. During this time I have suffered from Depression and Anxiety. I was deployed to Kuwait for a year and then sent to Fort Jackson SC. Since being at Fort Jackson I have had many issues struggling with Depression and Anxiety. In light of the recent Fort Hood shooting it has come to my attention that the Army and chain of commands do not normal handle Soldiers with issues very well. I have been struggling with my command for sometime. I feel that there is a stigma in the military concerning the issues of Depression and Anxiety. Talking from my own experiences, it feels as though they toss you aside for treat you like crap when you start having these issues. A lot of the times I feel hopeless and like there is no one to help me or understand the way that I am feeling. It seems that if a doctor writes you a profile to try and help you the command will do what they can to pick apart or completely disregard anything that could or would help you. In my recent experience my doctor went behind my back and told my commander a completely different set of remarks in which he told me. I felt and still feel extremely betrayed and again hopeless because of this. I thought he was there to help me and find ways to do that until I was out. We have a lot of training that we do to make us aware that people will be there for you when you need help or that we can go seek help when we are feeling like we need it. In all actuality Soldiers are still afraid to do so because they fear the repercussions or the stigma that will be put on them. The Army is extremely competitive and no one person wants to have to deal with the what will happen if they do not have an understanding chain of command. Yes we are still Soldiers and we still have a job to do but not everyone responds to a situation the same way. I had to go to a depression clinic while I was here for 4 weeks. IN that time I met several military personnel who were having an impossible time with their peers and chain of command. Some of them had even contemplated suicide or killing the people in their chain. I think that more attention needs to be brought to Soldiers struggling with mental illness. I can sympathize with the Soldiers that were in that clinic with me because I have and still feel like I am being attacked or targeted because of what I am going through.
I am not a very good writer, I am better with speaking aloud. I just feel extremely passionate about this subject and the change that needs to be brough forth. To help all service members who are going through this. We have to many of our Military killing themselves or others.