- Posted May 3, 2014 by
This iReport is part of an assignment:
Going public with mental illness
Things Get Better
- Jareen, CNN iReport producer
When I was 19 years old, I attempted suicide after a bad break up with an ex girlfriend. I was diagnosed with major depression. I immediately underwent therapy and was prescribed to anti depressants. I did therapy for 4 years, and was on the medication for 7. Almost 10 years later, I feel that I have overcome my illness and I am able to live a healthy, happy, fulfilling life.
The scariest thing about my experience was that I TRULY believed in my heart that things would not get better. Clearly, they did!
One thing that has always helped me battle my depression, was a quote that I read after being hospitalized in a psychiatric unit for 5 days.
It said “Don’t always believe what you think”
That’s the best way I’ve been able to explain to people how depression works. It feels like you can’t control your thoughts. It feels like a negative force has taken over your brain, and soon enough, you start to believe those thoughts. I believed that if I took my life, no one would miss me. I know it sounds crazy but it’s seriously that powerful.
If your reading this, and you feel like hurting yourself…..DON’T!
I was lucky enough to survive and was able to see the pain I put my friends and family through. Ask for help, and do whatever it takes to get better.
THINGS WILL GET BETTER!