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  • Posted June 25, 2014 by
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    Meet West Coast Artist Bigg Cap

     
    I WAS BORN IN SAN BERNARDINO CA, SEPTEMBER 11, 1981. I WAS BIRTHED BY CHERLYN BRAWLEY AND MY FATHER RONNIE MURPHY. AS A CHILD I GREW UP IN A HOUSE HOLD OF SIX, ME MY 2 BROTHERS RONNIE AND DEON, AND MY 2 SISTERS SHERRRON, AND SHATON.

    AT THE AGE OF 3 MY MOM HAD A BRAIN TUMOR AND DIED, BUT WAS BROUGHT BACK TO LIFE WHICH LEFT THE LEFT SIDE OF HER BODY PARALIZED. I DON'T REMEMBER MUCH BUT GOING TO THE HOSPITAL TO SEE HER FROM TIME TO TIME. AS A CHILD WE DID NOT HAVE MUCH GROWING UP, MY MOM WAS A SINGLE PARENT AND MY DAD CAME AROUND RARLEY. I WAS ALWAYS INTO MUSIC, USING MUSIC AS AN OUTLET TO GET PASSED THE BAD TIMES WE WENT THROUGH. I REMEBER WAKING UP EARLY IN THE MORNING TO WATCH YO MTV RAPS, WITH FAB 5 FREDDY. BACK IN THE DAYS I WAS ALWAYS INTO BIG DADDY KANE, ERIC B AND RAKIM, RUN-DMC, BEASTIE BOYZ, KRS-1 AND MANY OTHERS.

    AT THE AGE OF 9 MY MOM PUT ME INTO BASEBALL, AND TO FIND OUT I WOULD COME TO LOVE THE SPORT, I ALWAYS TOLD MY MOM I WOULD GO PRO AND BUY HER A BIG HOUSE AND THAT I WAS GOING TO TAKE CARE OF HER. BUT AT THE AGE OF 14 YEARS OLD THAT DREAM WOULD FALL SHORT TO FIND OUT MY MOM WAS DIAGNOSED WITH CANCER AND ONLY HAD MONTHS TO LIVE.

    BEING THAT YOUNG I DID NOT KNOW HOW TO TAKE IT, IT FELT LIKE THE WORLD WAS BEING TAKEN FROM ME, BEING A MOMMAS BOY AND ALL. SHE DIED MAY OF 1994, NOT HAVING A CLOSE RELATIONSHIP WITH MY DAD I DECIDED TO MOVE IN WITH MY OLDEST SISTER SHERRON IN PALMDALE CA, WHERE I ATTENDED HIGHLAND HIGH SCHOOL. I WANTED TO CONTINUE MY DREAMS OF BEING A PRO BASEBALL PLAYER BUT WITH NO SUPPORT OR FAMILY COMING TO MY GAMES I GAVE IT UP AND GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL WITH A 2.5 AVERAGE. MUSIC WAS ALWAYS APART OF MY LIFE AND I DREAMED OF STILL BEING SOMEONE BIG IN LIFE. I USED TO WRIGHT ALOT OF POEMS BOUT MY FEELINGS AND WHAT I WAS GOING THROUGH AT THAT POINT OF MY LIFE, NOT KNOWING ONE DAY IT WOULD TURN INTO RAPS. AS A TEEN OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL MY SISTER SUGGESTED I SHOULD GO INTO THE MILITARY BUT I DIDN'T AGREE.

    I STARTED HANGING OUT IN THE STREETS PARTYING, SMOKING WEED, AND BATTLE RAPING AT LOCAL PARTIES. SOME PEOPLE THOUGHT I WAS DOPE AND ASKED ME WHY WASN'T I SIGNED BUT IT WAS ALL FOR FUN AT THE TIME. IT WAS SO FUN ME AND MY BOYS CAME UP WITH THIS CLICK CALLED THE ACCOMPLISHED ASSASSINS. IT WAS SOULJA BOY, MAJOR, GENERAL, AND MY SELF CAPTAIN. WE WERE NEVER A REAL GROUP BUT THAT WAS MY CREW, I NEVER HAD REAL MONEY FOR STUDIO EQUIPMENT SO I STARTED MAKING BEATS ON SONY PLAYSTATION'S MUSIC GENERATOR AND WRITING LYRICS. I WOULD SOON COME TO MEET MY FUTURE WIFE PHEOBE AT THE AGE OF 23, WHEN THINGS WEREN'T GOING SO GOOD FOR ME. I HAD NO JOB AND WAS GETTING INTO FIGHTS WITH MY SISTER ABOUT WHAT I WAS GOING TO DO WITH MY LIFE, SO TO AVOID ANY MORE CONFLICT WITH MY SISTER I MOVED IN WITH PHEOBE AND HER PARENTS. AT THAT TIME I GOT A JOB AS A JANITOR CLEANING LOCAL BUSINESSES BUT LATER GOT FIRED FROM THAT JOB FROM GETTING INTO A FIGHT WHICH BROKE MY HAND. PHEOBE AND I EVENTUALLY MOVED OUT AND GOT OUR OWN PLACE TOGETHER, SHE WAS THE ONLY ONE WORKING AT THE TIME WHILE I WAS STILL TRYING TO PERSUE MY MUSIC CAREER. LATER ON I RAN INTO A FRIEND FROM HIGH SCHOOL RELLI ROK WHERE WE START MAKING BEATS ON REASON 2.5 SOFTWARE PROGRAMS. HE THEN INTRODUCED ME TO RNS BEATS WHERE I BECAME THE FOURTH MEMBER OF A GROUP THEY HAD ALREADY STARTED, AND MADE A NAME FOR THEMSELVES CALLED THE DARK STARR VILLIANS.

    WE WOULD GO ON TO MAKE AN ALBUM BUT DIDN'T HAVE THE RIGHT PIECES TO PACKAGE AND GET OUR MUSIC OUT THERE, WE ALL WENT OUR SEPERATE WAYS BUT ME AND RNS CONTINUED TO KEEP IN CONTACT. RNS WENT ON TO TEACH MUSIC CLASSES IN SAN FRANCISCO AND I WENT ON TO BECOME AN AIR CRAFT MECHANIC AT NORTHROP GRUMMAN. AT THE END OF 2008 RNS WOULD COME BACK TO LOS ANGELES TO START HIS OWN PRODUCTION STUDIO, WE HAD LOST CONTACT SO HE CALLED MY WIFE'S JOB TO GET BACK IN TOUCH WITH ME. FROM THERE WE STARTED TO MAKE MUSIC AGAIN. WITH ME HAVING BACK TO BACK KIDS IT WAS HARD TO STAY IN THE STUDIO KNOWING I HAD A FAMILY TO TAKE CARE OF. I WAS STILL WRITING MUSIC EVEN THOUGH I WASN'T MAKING IT OUT TO THE STUDIO AS MUCH IT CAME TO THE POINT WHERE I WAS WATCHING TIME GO BYE.

    SO I HIT UP RNS AND TOLD HIM I WAS READY TO GO ALL THE WAY WITH MY SOLO ALBUM AND HE SAID LETS DO IT, SO I WENT ON TO WRITE WHAT IS NOW MY SINGLE "WE CAME TO BALL" AFTER SEEING CROWDS REACTING AT THE CLUBS AND THE SHOWS I KNEW THIS WAS MEANT FOR ME. AND FROM NOW ON I WILL EMBRACE MY DESTINY. IN THE END IF GOD IS FOR YOU WHO CAN BE AGAINST YOU THIS IS DEDICATED TO MY MOM R.I.P MY WIFE, KIDS, AND FAMILY, AND ALL THOUGHS WHO WERE POSITIVE IN THIS HARD ROAD TO COMPLETE AND LIVE OUT MY DREAMS THANK YOU ALL BIGG CAP.

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