- Posted August 4, 2014 by
This iReport is part of an assignment:
Your 'Aha' weight-loss moments
A lot lost and even more gained!
Since turning 20 my weight played an unbearable toll on my life. I was in a vicious cycle of being depressed and eating to feel better. To make matters worse, I have Type 1 diabetes. The more carbs I ate, the more insulin I required...the more insulin I took, the more weight I gained. You get the picture. I was able to lose 30 lbs. after having my twins, but of course, gained it all back. The guilt and shame felt from losing weight only to gain it back was even harder to control and completely killed the small amount of self confidence I had. I was fat and felt sick with disgust. I was embarrassed any time I left the house. I questioned the impact my weight played on my children and questioned how my husband could even be attracted to me. I wore capri pants to the beach!
Something finally changed inside me. I wanted to make a change to better myself, better my feelings about myself, better the example I was setting for my kids and be in complete control of my life. Ideal Protein was different. It was strict, but I knew exactly what I could or couldn't eat. I valued having a coach to check in with on a weekly basis. I was able to drop my insulin needs in half. I learned how to pay attention to my serving sizes and eat with intention. I had a few weeks that weren't as productive as others, but averaged a weight loss of 10-12 lbs. a month. It was fast and my body was rapidly changing into the skinny person that had been suffocated with fat and disgust for 15 years. I have never been so proud of myself and I truly don't think I would have been this successful on any other diet plan. I recently went clothes shopping and cried in the fitting room. It is a truly amazing feeling. I lost 77.8 lbs. and gained more self confidence than I have ever had, gained years of my life back, gained being a role model for my children, gained control and gained happiness. Holy cow, life is great as a skinny person! I have been in maintenance for a year now and have maintained my weight loss. It is a wonderful feeling to go from XL to XS!!
My starting weight was 200.8 and end weight is 123. I might not have lost as much weight as others that were featured, but the feelings of success are the same. Weight loss is like winning the lottery to me. I still eat a very healthy diet and refrain from junk food and treats. I have decided that I'd rather stay skinny than have a piece of cake! Especially, when fruit tastes so great!
I've also been able to go to the beach and wear a bathing suit and go ziplining! The best part is that I can run around with my kids and not sit on the sidelines!