- Posted August 9, 2014 by
La trinidad, Philippines
This iReport is part of an assignment:
Living with a chronic illness
How to determined the headline about the other types of schizo in my story
A neuroendocrine transmitter called dopamine is a chemical released by nerve cells to send signals to other nerve cells. Psychologists have determined that when our dopamine is not balanced in our head, there is a 100% probability of an illness called schizophrenia. In my case, I test positive for this illness. One symptom includes the loss of reality. I am unaware in this condition if something I perceive is reality, an illusion or an auditory hallucination. How did I discover that I test positive for the schizo-paranoid type? How can I determine if I am having symptoms of schizophrenia? What is my risk? What should I do to be treated?
When I was 17 years old, during my college years, I noticed something strange was going on in my mind, but I didn't know how to define what I was feeling. I was paranoid with my classmates, but I didn’t have strong feelings of delusions. My feeling was that they were talking about me and accusing me of something that I never did to them. I began to feel suspicious. I was experiencing paranoia. I have been experiencing these symptoms for many, many years. But also I have been experiencing auditory hallucinations and a strange sense of smells.
The worst thing I have experienced is that I see and hear many strange things inside my head. The voices are strong. They are not just one voice, but many of them. They're talking behind the walls in our house, when I go out outside and so on. I have not been able to talk or consult with a psychiatrist for almost four months. Those four months filled me with a sense of failure and were a nightmare to my entire life. My dad took me to a psychiatrist and a physician as well. Medication is the number one means to treat schizophrenia. Antipsychotic drugs are the best medicine to treat these symptoms. Serotonin and dopamine contribute to major cycles in our brain involving movement, working, smiling, crying, to act, to talk and so on.
Schizophrenia has five types, not just paranoia. I belong to the paranoid type. I can exhibit anger, aloofness, and anxiety and sometimes I can be argumentative. Paranoia is a common type of schizophrenia that is normal in many societies. People who are the paranoid type like me can still cope and live in a normal environment. Though it is not as bad as a case of schizophrenia, it still should be treated with antipsychotics as well as anti-anxiety and anti-depressants. Being a schizo-paranoid type, there is a major tendency to fall, to feel sad, alone, and most of the time, feel lonely and empty.
A psychiatrist or a physician doctor will also advise us to take anti-depressants. Taking antipsychotic and other medicines help a lot of people who have schizophrenia. After years of taking antipsychotic drugs my auditory and delusion symptoms got less and less. Risking the side effects of the medicine is like going through WAR. You have to suffer the sacrifice and consequences. At the age of 17, I was diagnosed as a schizophrenia paranoid type. When I turned 19, the problem was not as bad, and it is now just a schizoaffective disorder, a combination of bipolar and schizophrenia symptoms. Earlier, I had mentioned that I am a paranoid type it’s because I’m positive about it. I have a strong feeling that people around me are always talking about me.
I am 24 years old now and I still have to take my medicine. This is a regular maintenance for all people affected with schizophrenia. But to me, it is treatable, so long as I take my maintenance and follow what my psychiatrist wants me to do. I did have some additional experience with a psychology doctor. I have not mentioned this at once because with this doctor made me worse instead of helping me. My life took a sad turn was when my psychiatry doctor passed away last February 11, 2014. But life goes on. People like me who have this illness should continue to have hope. God will help. You just have to believe in Him. Trusting your doctor is the best way to go out this prison which keeps you out of pleasant company.