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    Posted April 8, 2015 by
    New Fairfield, Connecticut
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    Infertility stories

    Infertility, Loss, Love, Strength & A Miracle!


    The pain of infertility, loss with many ups and downs gave us strength to finally become a family!


    The silence of infertility is something that held me down and brought me to a dark place with no escape while keeping the smile on the outside.


    Our story begins with being diagnosed with “unexplained infertility”. We went through many years of silence as we endured several cycles of IUI (Intrauterine Insemination), cycles of IVF (In-Vitro Fertilization), FET (Frozen Embryo Transfer), with cancelled cycles, disappointment of failed cycles and a loss.


    To get so far in your journey and then to experience a late pregnancy loss is something we couldn't understand. It was a deep, dark time for us both. The healing process was hard and lonely, nobody knowing what to do or say to us. With much fear and uneasiness not too long after our loss we began IVF treatments again. The road wasn’t easy.  There were failed cycles and negative pregnancy results we encountoured along the way but after six months of treatments we became pregnant again.


    Being pregnant was exciting and the scariest time of our lives. Every pregnant moment was thoughts of “what if’” and wondering what was going to go wrong. I wish during my pregnancy I had the confidence of taking pictures of my belly and acting as if everything was okay, but it wasn't.


    I didn't have the pregnancy confidence until after giving birth to our miracle; a beautiful healthy baby boy. Then came the worry moments of a parent that will never go away and I wouldn't change that for the world!


    Each step of fertility treatments made us grow, learn and become a stronger couple.


    I feel the experiences endured made me who I am today. I would have never thought that this would be my family story but I am proud and grateful each day that it is. Infertility gave me the strength to be someone I never knew I can be. I'm an author, an advocate, a "IF" friend and someone who is passionate about supporting others in their journey. I've grown so much and have met so many great people along the way.  I look at it as this was "my way" to be a Mom and a better person today!


    Infertility can be a long road but find what you need to get through it . Find the support that you need. Remember that all stories are unique as are their outcomes. Make your journey your own. Infertility can consume you, putting you in a dark place but the light is waiting for you at the end of your journey whatever that may be! You're not alone!

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