This is a story about my 19 years old daughter born with Autism/ mentally delayed named Silk. Silk was a extremely happy baby with some usual tendency such hiding when she heard loud or pitch high noises. When we went to the mall she would run like we were playing hide and go see. Silk was always high strong about what she wanted and didn't want. I thought as a older mom in my early 40's I just would not allow that to interfere our relationship or pay that behavior any mind. As time went on, I later found out the true ater haven't her tested by U.CL.A doctor. I was overwhelmed by this news. I really was not educated on what Austism was. And I didn't know what to expect.

As a mother I have edured many situation that, it makes me want to cry and then I have to praise myself for the many hurdles I have experienced. I found out there is a whole lot of loneiness and crying behind closed door that people don't have a clue you are going through. I seem like my entire life has come to a stop. My mental status is strong in tack, because I just wouldn't this a test in my life to get me down. I had happy days and I had sad days. I spend all my time show Silk the world. I took Silk to concerts, plays, parks. I taught her how to swim. We traveled on the many airplanes. We went skiing on the waters with a saftety jacket. We cross the country on a train going from Chicago to Texas. And mind you, it was not easy to do all those things but it made our relationship closer they teeth & jaw. That how close we were. People saw the relationship and started judging me for my commitment and a sense of responsiblity to show Silk what I thought she might miss because of her disablity. But, the true of the matter I learn to ignor and listen only to my heart. I love my daughter Silk with all my heart. I am a true mother. I believe God has provided me with enough strength to continue in my task of loviing her.

I have started writing a book on my experience with Silk and what a caregiver goes through for public awareness.