I am the self that you always want to escape, forget.I will always be with you even when you are not with me.Call me the god devil or the light inside youthe one that will be with you through every journey that began from me and will end up in me.I as you shall be transformed into various forms.Nil is where it began from and nil is where it ends up in and everything happens on its own and there is no boss.I give you as self and you shall receive it as others relation to self.I as you decide the journey and I in different form give you in relation to self.So, the self in itself is an illusion and neither do I exist nor do you exist and what exist is just an illusion a menas for entertainment and for the path to choose may that be any dogmas or phical display.And your deeds will lead to your journey driven by your desire and I give you the framework for carving your desire.I shall lead you and you shall follow me in different forms of I and finally on your desire based on your deeds we shall attain a state of nil.You shall be free but I shall remain in other forms of I.I am here to take all the pain and set you free just to let know what freedom is.While you see me as the truth the heaven nihilism is an illusion and while you see nil as the truth I am an illion and this is the story behind hen and egg which existed first.Without the false being existed thetruth cannot be realized as the truth and without the truth being existed the false cannot be realized as false.I and nil are the same but due to the evry nature of existance we cannot be seen as the same like in case of hen and egg.I am the son and nil is the father and we both lead you to heaven.And these other form of I are the faries this is what heaven is all about.We serve them and they serve us.The soul is the accumulation of your desire, your curiosity that transforms you into other forms.Without nil I cannot exist and without someone knowing nil cannot exist so all I do this is to do aweay with my lonliness.I do begin,end as well as exist for ever, the everiving the self the nil.So ,actually the self is nil and illusion is what the self is being through.