Somewhere, in the vastness expanse of space, in a minute parsec of timelessness lost within itself among the never ending reaches of the universe where sound and vision had no bearing or focus -- I was.

Totally adrift without senses, spirit, or a purposeful meaning.  Where dimensions and planes had no boundaries.  A place where all things await its time to be given its beginning.

I was not alone, but shared many awareness’s, of which, one awareness was more special than all the others.  We knew, yet we were apart.  This awareness was keyed in some way to my own identity and gave me companionship and love in a way I could not comprehend.  I gave it back without knowing why or how.  Then, it was gone.

I became lonely and lost without meaning.  I no longer felt the presence yet I longed to be with it.  I felt pain even though there was none.  Yes, a part of me cried out for the other even though I knew not what the other was or could be. 

Suddenly, I awoke in a strange body and all references of previous awakenings were lost.  It had legs and arms, hands and feet.  It had a head with eyes to see and ears to hear.  Strange sounds came out of their mouths.  As I began to grow, I became aware that I could do almost anything, yet I searched for something lost, something I knew, yet could not find.

As the years flew by, time as I began to comprehend it, my lack of finding the purpose of my being made me different from those around me, constantly searching, trying new things and experiences, constantly trying to whatever I lost that my being was always searching, looking for that which was not satisfied.

I could not love; I could not think or apply myself without.  I was whole yet very much detached from being....This intellectual hunger was a thirst that could not be quenched -- I needed it and looked always for that purpose.

I made many mistakes along the way, for instance, there were clues given that clearly showed the path, yet my searches were blind towards its direction.  In my many travels, I thought many times over I had found it and I would finally be able to experience life, love, and be happy.  It was not to be, instead, I made my own prison and condemned myself to solitary confinement.

One day, I was given a new experience and chance to apply myself.  Suddenly, I found myself before the being or presence that was known to me.  It was unbelievable; I could predict the beings feelings, emotions, and thoughts.  I felt love -- a love I had never found since before I was a being.  I began to understand the joy and happiness that I had missed.   A feeling I lost and could not find.  It, like the universe is without words or reasoning.    I feeling so beautiful it made me feel whole and longer detached.  I have finally broken the barrier that bound me and began to feel alive to express myself for who I am and to that which I was to be.  I found my soul mate.