- Posted December 7, 2009 by
This iReport is part of an assignment:
Gay or lesbian later in life?
If I could change I would
Hello my name is Chance and this is my story. I came to realize i was different/gay at the early age of eight years old when i discovered i was attracted to guys. Of course being African American and growing up in an urban area, I dared not share that information. I occasionally had youthful experiences but nothing substantial until I turned 14 yrs old and moved to a middle class black neighborhood. I continued to hide my sexual identity, but I did manage to have a hidden relationship with a neighbor friend. I went back and forth to girls and guys to throw family and friends off ,but continued the gay relationship. At 19 years old i decided to marry my girlfriend because I wanted to change and have a family. We got married had 4 children. I continued to have that hidden gay relationship with my childhood friend until the age of 28 yrs old.I eventually told my wife when I was around the age of 22 years old. And she continued to love me anyway. I joined the Baptist church accepted Christ raised my children in the church and hid my Homosexuality from the world. I eventually came out of the closet my thing being closets are for clothes not people and besides it gets stuffy in there lol.I eventually separated from my wife moved to an all white community. We are still married have grown children and love each other very much. I have always been a excellent singer it has helped me feel good about who i am. My children accept me as I am, so does my friends and coworkers. I continue to worship in the church as a gay man reaching out to other gay people letting them know that jesus loves them irregardless of what the christian right says!