January 15, 2009, one of the happiest days of my life. They day my 1st son was born.  I remember sitting in the hospital room feeling odd.  I couldn't concentrate on anything.  I know now it was the 1st symptoms of my PPD.  It was followed by no appetite, sleeplessness, anxiety, hopelssnes, and endless crying.  Weeks 4 - 16 were the hardest.  It took at least 16 weeks to get on a medicine that worked form me.  By this time, I was in the grips of a major depression.  It took over 18 months to begin feeling like myself again.  I beleive my son suffered as well.  He is a great kid and he loves me very much.  He however has trouble making eye contact and is the least social of my 3 boys.  I was terrified to have more children. I couldn't possibly endure another round of PPD.  Three months into my 2nd pregancy, depression hit.  I was terrified.  It hit harder and faster than it did with my 1st son.  I didn't want to take anti-depressants during preganancy but my Dr. said it was ok. I began anti-depressants and was back to myself in no time. I delivered a perfectly healthy baby boy and had no depression symptoms after his birth.  Child #3, depression hit at week 6 of pregancy.  Anti-depressants prescribed and I delivered another healthy baby boy and experienced no PPD.  PPD is terrifying but is very treatable.