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    Posted June 30, 2010 by
    Lake Forest, California
    This iReport is part of an assignment:
    Losing unemployment benefits

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    Still Smiling Despite the Bad News


    CNN PRODUCER NOTE     sbeasla of Lake Forest, California, has been unemployed for a year and a half now and she just got her last benefits check in the mail last week, but she’s still smiling. 'If I went in there and said 'I'm unemployed, my life sucks,' no one would want to work with me. I chose to have a positive outlook on life,' she said.
    - zdan, CNN iReport producer

    I'm sure my story is like many others: laid off, without any possibility for new opportunities, and out of luck as I just received my last unemployment check in the mail yesterday.


    It upsets me that we are in the worst economy since the Great Depression however I'm still smiling. I feel guilty about it, want to worry myself out of sleep, and stress about what's going on but I just can't find myself to do that.


    I don't have a plan B. I've applied to numerous temp agencies only to be told I'm over-qualified or don't have what they're looking for. I've even thought of waiting tables until I can get my business up and running.


    I have also entertained the thought of moving up north with my parents or getting a roommate but considering this economy might take 5 years to improve; I don't think I can wait or live with my parents that long.


    I'm getting scared that time has run out for me and I don't have any money left but for some reason I still have hope that something will turn up; that the sun will shine and break apart the dark clouds that are hovering over my horizon. I am also wondering if there is a local group that networks to discuss what the next possible steps might be for us that are less fortunate. I think we could all us some mutual support as we work through this.


    As for the government, I really don't understand how they can take away our benefits. What are 1.2 million people nationwide going to do with no money and no jobs? I just don't see how that will help the economy. If we don't have money, we can't spend. You'll see more of us on the street - homeless. How will they tackle that problem? I'm just curious how they can rationalize all this and still attempt to turn the economy around. How do these people sleep at night? Is it with the knowledge that their own jobs are safe and they are living in the lap of luxury so who cares about anyone else? How can "we the people" justify this?

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