Certain people here in Morrilton are stewing in their own juices because I choose to remain single instead of giving this town a marriage like "normal people" are supposed to do and children for this town to corrupt with it's evil, well by golly it just ain't gonna happen hell will freeze over first if it isn't already frozen to begin with.  I could have married when I was young if heterosexuality and women were what I was into decades ago.  But no certain asinine people are peeved to high heaven because I continue to stay single.  That would be the biggest mistake I could ever have made maybe a good deal of them are peeved off because I never made the mistake the first time around. 

Some of those (those self same asinine "straight people" were quite fond of beating a path to the door of a long time known "closet gay" in the wee hours of the morning when they thought no one noticed, saw them or would know.  Get real it don't happen in a small town like Morrilton, you were noticed and people knew.  I had a guy tell me decades here in Morrilton, "well you could quit that sh*t if you wanted to and take a wife and have some children".  I've seen to many women slip around on their husbands and husbands slipping around on their wife's to know I'm not going to contribute to it and not ever going to be part of it.  I've seen this town utterly ruin countless lives and known two associates who committed suicide because of pressure from their family members and "so called friends and associates", the details of their suicide aren't important the fact is they did themselves in and three things played a major part in it. 

One was fear that everyone here would find one was "over the hill middle ages queer" and pressure from his family and religious and religious guilt trips (bible thumpers that's what some your guilt trips are capable of causing and you mistakenly believe you are spotless and blameless), the other because his family and "so called friends and associates" wanted nothing more to do with him.  And I say to you (family members you mistakenly believe and feel you are blameless and spotless).  Well I say to you, you not, you bible thumpers, church goers and family members are as much to blame as "so called friends and associates" themselves.  You mistaken feel "you know what's best for them" when most of you don't even know what's best for yourselves.  You do it all in the name of "it's for the best and it's your obligated religious duty" apparently it wasn't for the best for those two that committed suicide now was it.

Those words "for the best your better off" well just who the hell is it better off for or for the best, sure as hell isn't the people their hurting, making feel unwelcome, rejecting and causing such damage to.  Some of you might want to give some thought to that the next time you meet a homeless veteran or someone who doesn't fit into you particular hole.  Or doesn't march to the same beat of the drum and you say "thank you for your service to our country".

Typos most likely because I'm not fond of heavy proof reading what I write.

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Author R Gilbert

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