Today I'm reflecting on a school term that I was never supposed to accomplish told by some, mostly employment rehabilitation centers. They told me to do things that I love but nothing that would amount to work, and no possibility of college because I wouldn't retain any information. These were the last days of school before vacation.

A dance class with not enough 'Burt's Bees Wax' for those aching feet, broken bones and muscles from domestic violence kept me grasping to continue on some days. The mild remembrance problems from severe head trauma due also to domestic violence when trying to follow the counts in steps needed to remember my dance routines while singing at the same time (very hard by the way) made this very hard. I can remember the cracking sounds in my neck and back during some of those so hard to do steps.

My over accentuated eye rolls from head trauma that were too noticed and pointed out structurally during Shakespeare rehearsals left much confusion where I truly didn't fill in the blanks but this would leave me a bit behind with the confusion of it all.

The begging and pleading of the probably nonremembered lines for acting scenes in Acting 1 that were probably going to come up because of my brain injury.

The very many times of throwing my hands up in the air at piano for not being able to bend my fingers right or to be able to understand the concepts of the language in general.

Not to mention last but not least after many rehearsal and practices still coming out sounding like myself and missing final notes to stand out alone in Concert Choir.

All in all there have been many advantages and some disadvantages in my attempt to return to school.

And coming to grips of the acceptance that the Shakespeare showcase was not mine because I couldn't make it out of exhaustion of the entire term where I would have found closure from never having the opportunity to do those so wanted, so admired school plays.

One of the great things that I found is that I tried!

Lori Finnila

CEO of LJ Productions and Publishing

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