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    Posted April 15, 2012 by
    Decatur, Georgia
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    Anxiety - My Drug of Choice

    Dr. Drew,

    I am a fan of your show because I can relate to being a prisoner in you mind. I don't have a drug, alcohol, or sex addiction, I am a prisoner of Anxiety. I am a father of two wonderful boys 25 and 14, husband to a supportive wife of 14 years and a very loving family, but feel just as alone as if I were on a different planet. I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder at the age of 17. I went on meds for about 3 months and got worse. I decided to quit (dangerous I know) on my own and tough it out. About 6 months after going off the meds something very very strange happened that lasted for years, all symptoms of anxiety were completely gone as if it never happened. I felt free happy and as if I stepped into a new body and mind. Years later the symptoms returned for no reason and here I am at 48 still battling this internal demon. Dr Drew I don't drink, smoke. Never done drugs. As a matter of fact I have only one parking ticking to my name as a 48 year old man. I spend most of my time trying to control every aspect of my life to somehow prove to myself and others that I have my life managed, but on the inside I am in darkness and completely lost. I know millions of people suffer from this, but that offers no consultation to me I feel so all alone with this and feel that I will never ever be free of it. PLEASE help me. I will do whatever you ask, come to you, enroll in whatever place you ask it does not matter. I love life and all the small wonders it has. I long to truly say to someone when asked "Hey how are you" I'm fine how are you?. Sometimes I wish I did have a drug or alcohol problem that way I know where the source of the issue is and go to battle with it. Please help I want to life life to the fullest and stop this endless cycle of worry sadness and be the person my family THINKS I am.

    Thank you,
    Anthony Boea
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