- Posted June 26, 2012 by
My 1st & last love
Love… I hate it so much if what I am in is what's called love I will never love again. all what I feel & suffer it is unimaginable … how I loved her all this time and suddenly I knew that she didn't not deserve each second I was loving her.
When we were children I didn't know what was the difference between boys and girls, but she made me learn it through the infancy love then we grew with each other and had fun too. The best time was when I was with her and when we were adults. she loved me so much and from this time I knew what is the meaning of love and we spent a beautiful life, but you know in relation sure we have to fight sometimes and in one of those times we broke up and I felt she does not love me anymore, but after all this I still love her when I feel sad or happy I go and stay beside her home, imagining, remembering the good times we spent together and when I feel she is not safe I run quickly to her school to see her to be sure she is safe and I dream of her many times and I've never informed her all that .
and I promised myself that I will put all my mind in my study to be a successful man and when I reach to what I need I will think of love but now just work.
I studied hard year by year & when my friends were suggesting for going out for fun I told them "I am sorry, I am so busy because of studying".
Someday, by coincidence I heard bad news about her that she has a bad reputation because she does things out of ethics. She had changed after the broke, but I told myself she is not my business now, but … I don't know what can I do … I think I will never stop loving her but I have to concentrate in my target only right now.