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Are you living with depression?
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its hard to digest someone preaching you about optimisim and seeing the glass half 'full' when all tht u see around and feel is fog of pessimis.fear,uncertainity-the core of depression.
i wont start off with preaching,in fact ill narrate about my own experience and draw certain conclusions regarding it.
to start with ,in worldly terms i had a pretty good childhood apart frm some minor set backs..externally everything was fine and good but its the internal world tht didnt let me live in peace.a depression followed by a trauma can be taken care of ,as with time wounds heal,but its the depression tht has no cause,the vague prick of ur spirit compelling u to think tht compells u to commit suicide or at least consider it an option.When external faktors are the cause,running away seems to be an option,but wat do u do when the causes are internal?!there is no escape,the helplessness tht comes with feeling hopeless engulfes u ,digesting u with its intensity.such is the state of a person having chronic depression.Nothing wat so ever generates a feeling of happiness ,a time comes when an attachment is formed with such a state of mind,and the efforts made in getting out of it proves fruitless as a feeling of emptiness takes over.You cling to it.it gives u a reason to 'live' even if its on the lowest level of ur spirit.I have been having depression for the past 15 yrs,its nature and gradation changing as i reached my late 20s..its nothing short of an emotional ,spiritual rollercoster compelling u to become atheist one moment ,a believer of God the next,till a time comes when depending on ur beliefs and yearning u choose the path .
For many religion is a form of 'escape' frm themselves and their traumas ,to a certain extent its true,but if u start following a certain religion just so tht u can blind urself to ur core issues then thts a point in ur life when u need a reality check.
i am a muslim,and i started out my life as a devout muslim practising all its rituals,but along the lines of practising rituals a feeling of loss did generate in me,compelling me to think bout the purpose of my existence and the existence of the creation of the things around me..U see we live in a time where everything is manufacture,processed,everthing is custom-made to make life easier,but the question is to make life easier for doing 'what'?? wats the next level..the next step...is technology and luxury a means to an end or is it a step to bring out the best in us..??u see our problem is,we debate ,we argue ,in short we are' theologists' when it comes to religion.we leave it at tht..we take the role of an observer ,an audience meant to probe analyse form a conclusion and then get back to our meaningless set of rituals tht we perform on our daily basis.
As newton law states tht every action has an equal and opposite reaction..
u have to throw optimisim,good will,good intentions ,selflessness at nature or at lifesycle for it to get back to u..in short if u want positivity,u have to force urself to be a positive energy,spreading love and compassion even when every inch of u wants to negate it and get back to square one ,i.e negativity.The only motivator for tht is religion..not consumerism .religion is the only cure for depression..medications might give u a relief but rest assure its only temporary..unless u dont sort out ur own issues through ur connection with God,ur life will remain in a mess .
the second option is a medical one-cupping-a process by which through certain pressure points a blood is sucked out which releases all the toxic in the body.its a sure cure of depression too
i wont start off with preaching,in fact ill narrate about my own experience and draw certain conclusions regarding it.
to start with ,in worldly terms i had a pretty good childhood apart frm some minor set backs..externally everything was fine and good but its the internal world tht didnt let me live in peace.a depression followed by a trauma can be taken care of ,as with time wounds heal,but its the depression tht has no cause,the vague prick of ur spirit compelling u to think tht compells u to commit suicide or at least consider it an option.When external faktors are the cause,running away seems to be an option,but wat do u do when the causes are internal?!there is no escape,the helplessness tht comes with feeling hopeless engulfes u ,digesting u with its intensity.such is the state of a person having chronic depression.Nothing wat so ever generates a feeling of happiness ,a time comes when an attachment is formed with such a state of mind,and the efforts made in getting out of it proves fruitless as a feeling of emptiness takes over.You cling to it.it gives u a reason to 'live' even if its on the lowest level of ur spirit.I have been having depression for the past 15 yrs,its nature and gradation changing as i reached my late 20s..its nothing short of an emotional ,spiritual rollercoster compelling u to become atheist one moment ,a believer of God the next,till a time comes when depending on ur beliefs and yearning u choose the path .
For many religion is a form of 'escape' frm themselves and their traumas ,to a certain extent its true,but if u start following a certain religion just so tht u can blind urself to ur core issues then thts a point in ur life when u need a reality check.
i am a muslim,and i started out my life as a devout muslim practising all its rituals,but along the lines of practising rituals a feeling of loss did generate in me,compelling me to think bout the purpose of my existence and the existence of the creation of the things around me..U see we live in a time where everything is manufacture,processed,everthing is custom-made to make life easier,but the question is to make life easier for doing 'what'?? wats the next level..the next step...is technology and luxury a means to an end or is it a step to bring out the best in us..??u see our problem is,we debate ,we argue ,in short we are' theologists' when it comes to religion.we leave it at tht..we take the role of an observer ,an audience meant to probe analyse form a conclusion and then get back to our meaningless set of rituals tht we perform on our daily basis.
As newton law states tht every action has an equal and opposite reaction..
u have to throw optimisim,good will,good intentions ,selflessness at nature or at lifesycle for it to get back to u..in short if u want positivity,u have to force urself to be a positive energy,spreading love and compassion even when every inch of u wants to negate it and get back to square one ,i.e negativity.The only motivator for tht is religion..not consumerism .religion is the only cure for depression..medications might give u a relief but rest assure its only temporary..unless u dont sort out ur own issues through ur connection with God,ur life will remain in a mess .
the second option is a medical one-cupping-a process by which through certain pressure points a blood is sucked out which releases all the toxic in the body.its a sure cure of depression too
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