I don't know how long I suffered from clinical depression but I would guess since age 6. I tried to commit suicide at 15 and finally sought treatment after the birth of my first child. Anti-depressants take the edge off but I still suffer from low lows. A simple, common problem can throw me into a pit of despair and it takes everyting in my power to climb out. Medication and therapy has helped me to see it that it's not the "end of the world", everyone has problems to deal with in life and with the support of family and friends, I get through it; although it does me longer than the average person. I want people to know that we're not basket cases, you don't have to avoid us and most importantly, it's okay to talk about. Try to be a little understanding. Imagine the pain you feel after a break-up. Your heart is broken, it hurts, you can't eat, sleep or think about anything else. Now imagine that feeling times 10! Sadness, heartache, feeling hopeless and overwhelmed is something we've all experienced or will experience but when you suffer from clinical depression, those feelings are multiplied.
It's not easy, I wish I could just will it away BUT, I do see some benefits to to. I feel having clinical depression enables me to have deeper feelings of love, compassion, sympathy, and understanding. Call it tender-hearted or emotional if you want, I call it passionate emotion.
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