- Posted November 20, 2012 by
This iReport is part of an assignment:
CNN Fit Nation: 2013 Triathlon Challenge
The Quarter-Life Crisis
My name is Sarah and I would like to be a part of the CNN Fit Nation 2013 Triathlon Team.
I want to be a part of the team to get healthy. Unlike many other applicants, being active and eating healthy has always been a part of my life. But being fit and eating well is only part of the story – the true definition of health is a state of complete physical, social, and mental wellbeing. And all my life I’ve struggled achieve a good mental state, which has led to anxiety, depression, eating disorders and a general feeling of discontentment and inadequacy. And I think a lot of these unhealthy feelings stem from the fact that I don’t know who I am and I haven’t learned to be comfortable and love myself.
In healthcare, the cheapest form of medicine is prevention. I see so many middle aged men/ women who are unhappy with their lives. They end up in divorce or stay in an unhappy marriage and resent their partner. They are unhappy with their career and still aren’t sure where their skills and passions can take them. They seek happiness in other outlets, like their children, but never quite reach a state of contentment in themselves. After living with themselves for 4-5 decades, they still don’t know who they are and aren’t comfortable with who they’ve become. I want to prevent this feeling later on in life by taking the initiative and finding the strength to find out who I am.
I think that life is about experience and challenging yourself, and with this comes an opportunity to reflect and learn about who you are. So many people are afraid of failing and are unwilling to break out of their comfort zone, and as a result, they never really discover what they are capable of. Training for and competing in a triathlon is a challenge to myself: an opportunity to strengthen my mental fitness as I push my body to reach an extreme state of physical fitness and push harder and harder with each workout; an opportunity to overcome my fears – my fear of failing, my fear of water! I never learned how to swim as a child and am afraid to put my head underwater. I want to show myself that it is possible to confront your deepest fears and overcome them with hard work and determination. This is also an opportunity to do something I never thought I could do. I never thought I could complete a triathlon because I didn’t know how to swim and didn’t have the courage or confidence to seek the resources I needed to learn.
I think that a lot of women my age are going through a “quarter life crisis”; we feel lost, feel like we haven’t accomplished enough and don’t know what to do to feel satisfied in life. We fear settling for the wrong man, but are pressured to find a significant other before our late 20s, because if you are single in your late 20s, something is wrong with you, right? I not only want to use this experience to find out more about myself, but I also want to document my journey, in hopes of inspiring other young women out there to find out who they truly are and seek confidence and comfort in being and loving themselves.
My journey is a journey of self-discovery, a way for me to learn who I am and to have the confidence to love myself. I want to do everything I can to instill a culture of happiness in my life while I am young, in hopes that I will be happy with who I become and where I end up in the future.