- Posted December 3, 2012 by
This iReport is part of an assignment:
CNN Fit Nation: 2013 Triathlon Challenge
Turn things around and replenish my spirit!
Hi! I’m 45 and I live in Atlanta, GA with my 11-year-old daughter.. I’m a single mom, and I still dream of having a home and a family for my daughter and me.
I left my fiancé 18 months ago and while I know it was the right decision, it’s been a difficult road. The strength I had felt initially from taking charge of my life has all but disappeared. Financial difficulties, anxiety, and feelings of isolation have developed into a depression that I need to get out of in order to raise a confident, successful young lady. As it stands right now, I do not feel capable of doing that so this challenge would be life changing not only for me, but for my daughter as well.
Lately I’ve been feeling like life is spinning out of control. It’s all just going by too fast and I feel helpless to slow it down enough to get myself together. I need help and I feel that this challenge will be the perfect thing to do that.
I believe that when things are in balance that we have harmony in our lives. I also believe that being in good physical health creates good emotional health. I currently feel depleted of what I need to sustain myself and to be a good parent and role model for my child.
I’ve been searching for anything I can find that will improve my outlook. Vitamin supplements, life coaching, prayer, affirmations, and any kind of therapy you can think of. Then I heard about the CNN Fit Nation Triathlon, and thought it would be just the thing I’ve been searching for to change my life and put me on a new path. To get me out of my comfort zone and do something outrageous.
Clearly it’s about more than getting fit and in shape. Although that is a huge part – I’m at a pivotal point in my life – almost 46, and feeling the aging process hit me like a ton of bricks. I know if I don’t do something to get in shape now it may never happen. I keep saying I’m going to, but other obligations always seem to come first. Work is hectic and stressful. My daughter was diagnosed with ADD (as was I) and spending our weekends being couch potatoes is not the way I want her to grow up.
A physical challenge like this would draw me out – get me out of my head and out of my own way. And it’s time I do something for ME – it’s very easy for us moms to put everyone else first and stop doing things for ourselves. So this would be a great way to do that – but at the same time I will be doing a great thing for my daughter too. By being proud of myself again and giving myself a feeling of accomplishment, I’ll give myself the confidence and self-esteem I’ve been lacking and allow me to be the mom my daughter needs. It will show her how strong and capable I am and in turn give her confidence in herself as she sees what we are both capable of.
I’m certain this will help me turn things around and be life-changing for me, my daughter, and everyone else I know who won’t believe I’m actually doing this. If you only knew how outrageous this is for me. Even doing a video of myself… I’m already out of my comfort zone. And I’m ready to continue to challenge myself! So I really REALLY hope you choose me as one of the members of the team for the 2013 challenge. Thank you for your time and consideration! I wish all the best to you, and everyone associated with Fit Nation.