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    Posted December 14, 2012 by
    Arnold, Maryland
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    Newtown school shooting: Thoughts and tributes

    Too Many of these in my lifetime


    I am a simple mother of 3 living on a peninsula in Arnold MD. We are also a small close community. My children are 18, 15 and 11 and I am 36. I spent my morning with my 15 year old getting IV therapy at the local hospital when the reports started hitting my Facebook page. I stopped at both the middle and high school today. Both have the buzzer camera bells and yet while they are good to have they by no means prevent people from walking in to the school. The administrators that monitor it can't even see the faces of people outside and are frankly too busy doing other things. At the high school, I buzzed the door, was let in and could have easily continued walking without checking in.  As I pulled into my community this evening my heart was touched by the luminaries that were put out in remembrance and even more so as I watched all three of my children help light them together . My 11 year old had many questions my 18 year old was visibly upset and my 15 year old stared with sadness.. My youngest said "why would this ever happen mom" my 18 year old said "its happened to much". I looked at them all and recalled and named too many school shootings that I remember and at 36 they are to many. My heart goes out to the families in Connecticut and to the families who have gone thru this before. There are no words to say to a mother and father who will never hold there child again who will never really know why this happened to them. May they have the strength to get thru this.

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