- Posted December 19, 2012 by
Bellmore, New York
This iReport is part of an assignment:
Newtown school shooting: Thoughts and tributes
A First Grader's Heart
- dsashin, CNN iReport producer
This blog post was my attempt at catharsis and understanding something so incomprehensible. Sending love from the heart of one first grader's parent to sadly, forty others.
A First Grader's Heart...
First grade is a big deal.
It's innocence, earnestness and candor,
curious eyes and open minds.
It's the first step towards the land of big kids: exciting for children,
bittersweet for parents who wonder how their babies got so big, so fast.
We worry, wonder and encourage at the start of each new milestone.
We beg Time to slow down as we savor these waning little kid days.
First grade puts the world of books and language in their very own hands and opens
the door for new friends and experiences. Their perspectives stop us in our tracks
and remind us of how happiness is not tied up in material things.
I met my own lifelong best friend in first grade.
Thirty years later, we are the mothers of daughters born one month to the day apart.
They are first graders.
I see their faces each time I think of those beautiful children.
My heart hurts at the thought of their parents' awful reality.
I want to wrap them up in my arms and cry with them.
My head can't help but go to a place that is brutally sad, where innocence is lost.
I want to make sense of this senseless horror, but
there's none to be had.
Perhaps if we all lived our lives with the heart of a first grader, our
world would be a kinder, safer place.
Perhaps the best thing I can do to honor their memories is to encourage
the peace in my own children's hearts and go forward each day with
more gratitude and pray that it's enough.