Having to make this decision was not an easy thing for me to do. Most people who have never had to make this choice pass wrongful judgement. I was in the middle of a divorce raising four kids on my own. I had been in a very abusive marriage for 16 yrs. I was beaten physically and emotionally . I feared this man as he threaten to kill me many times. My only hope was when i found courage to get a job and began to slowly feel i had a chance. Through support of a few friends i was able to move out with my kids. I met a man whom i am married happy to know for over 17 years now. We had to see each other secret for the fear my ex husband would find out and i knew if he did he will kill us. I ended up pregnant .At first we were both so happy i wanted this baby more than words can say. The fear of what i had been through and what i knew my ex husband was capable of then took over and my fear grew. I knew if he found out i was pregnant he would go crazy. I made the heart felt decision to have an abortion. I knew in my heart no matter what that at that time in my life it was the only answer. I remember crying the whole way there and saying goodbye to this baby that i loved. I said a prayer and it was over. I think of that baby often the pain never goes away but i knew for the safety of my four kids and myself it was the only thing i could do. There are many reasons why woman make this choice and for people to pass judgement on someone they do not know or have any clue why is something i will never understand. We do not go into this all happy and go on living as if it never happen. It stays with you forever. God does forgive we all sin. We fight for our rights in America for so many different rights but yet we stand there trying to take the rights away from woman to make a hard painful choice with our own bodies.
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