- Posted February 8, 2013 by
Kansas City, Missouri
This iReport is part of an assignment:
Have you had an abortion?
I Regret Lost Fatherhood!!
We decided to never tell anyone about the abortions and suppress all our shame and guilt so that no one would find out what we had done. 2 years later that same girl and I were married. For the first 5 years of our marriage, our lives were filled with alcoholism, cheating, pornography addictions and Kelly had suicidal thoughts and even attempted suicide at one point. After having no where else to turn, Kelly found the one man who would save her from this shame and guilt, and that man is Jesus Christ. I saw that change in her and wanted the same change in my life. I did find that same forgiveness and mercy that Kelly found through a bible study.
I always wanted to blame Kelly for the abortions and let her take the fall for having them because I said to myself, "it wasn't my body, so it wasn't my fault." This couldn't have been more wrong. Now I see that my reason for being a coward was because I was not man enough to respect women and not have sex with my girlfriend before we were married and ready to have a baby. The next thing I realized is that no matter how much it was the "woman's choice" it took two DNA strands to come together to create our child, and I should have fought for my children as they were both half of me. So just because I wasn't the one having the abortion, it was part of me that was being aborted too. I realized I am just as much at fault for the abortion as Kelly was.
I want to let all men and women know that I regret lost fatherhood and that abortion doesn't just end a human life but it hurts the mother and the father just as much. We all deserve better than abortion.