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You Can't Grieve What You Can't Feel
I had an abortion 34 years ago not because I was being pressured. In fact, the boy who was the father wanted me to have the baby. The bottom line is I didn't want to have a baby, and I wanted to believe that this was just a bunch of cells. So I hardened my heart, I had the abortion and I determined that I was never gonna let it bother me. It was nobody’s business but my own, it was my body and I could choose what to do. If you would've asked me if it bothered me I would have said no. And I really believed it was true that it didn't bother me. You can’t grieve what you can’t feel.
8 years passed and then Jesus Christ changed my heart, but even then, though I confessed it as sin, I still didn't have an emotional connection to the baby that I killed. How is it that a woman can kill her own baby and carry on as if nothing has happened? You can’t grieve what you can’t feel.
I felt nothing until God graciously gave me a vision of heaven one day. He introduced me to the baby that was my child. He showed me my son with all of his potential- things he would’ve done, people his life would’ve touched. After he was made known to me, the reality of what I had done came flooding in. Until that day, the pain lay buried in my heart. Because you can’t grieve what you can’t feel.
I attended a Rachel’s Vineyard Retreat which I can recommend to any woman who needs healing.
35% of women will have had at least one abortion before they are 45 years old. That means that approximately 1 in 3 women in this country are wounded inside, many of whom are numb to their pain. It’s my prayer that they find healing
8 years passed and then Jesus Christ changed my heart, but even then, though I confessed it as sin, I still didn't have an emotional connection to the baby that I killed. How is it that a woman can kill her own baby and carry on as if nothing has happened? You can’t grieve what you can’t feel.
I felt nothing until God graciously gave me a vision of heaven one day. He introduced me to the baby that was my child. He showed me my son with all of his potential- things he would’ve done, people his life would’ve touched. After he was made known to me, the reality of what I had done came flooding in. Until that day, the pain lay buried in my heart. Because you can’t grieve what you can’t feel.
I attended a Rachel’s Vineyard Retreat which I can recommend to any woman who needs healing.
35% of women will have had at least one abortion before they are 45 years old. That means that approximately 1 in 3 women in this country are wounded inside, many of whom are numb to their pain. It’s my prayer that they find healing
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