- Posted February 8, 2013 by
Ann Arbor, Michigan
This iReport is part of an assignment:
Have you had an abortion?
thanks for asking
I had my abortion in 1971. It was legal there a few years before the Roe Vs Wade decision. I was taking birth control, was inconsistent, and became pregnant. All of a sudden I had a big problem. Raising a child was not a part of the self-centered worldview I had created. Through friends’ leads, I was able to get a legal, no-cost abortion, paid for by the state. Problem solved, or so I thought.
My Hawaiian “paradise” .experience quickly deteriorated following my abortion. Without realizing why, my joys turned to sadness, my heart turned cold, and my closest relationship turned distant and angry. My paradise had become a living hell. Yet at the time, I did not see a connection between my abortion and my misery. I had thought this would take care of my problem, but instead it created a bigger one. The interior pain grew and grew, and I found a greater misery than I could have ever imagined was possible. I know it will sound corny, but it was the hand of God that saved me from my misery. It was forgiveness for a "sin: tha I did not even knew I had committed. I did not believe in sin. Yet somewhere inside was that pain. It was in a profound experience of God's love that I finally recognized the source of my misery.
so many women have been hurt by abortion. It is hidden from many of them. It is a lie that abortion helps women. It hurts them. Knowing that I allowed my child to be killed for my own convenience...... it is a hard thing to live with. I will spend my life trying to right the wrong: the lie that abortion is good for women. Thanks for asking.