- Posted February 10, 2013 by
This iReport is part of an assignment:
Have you had an abortion?
At first, I did feel relief. and, yes, I did go on with my life. Until I started college and began to understand just "what" I had done. Guilt, grief, mourning.... all began to set in. This started a very "dark" period in my life riddled with depression, self-hate, and yes, 2 suicide attempts. I had murdered an innocent little being! What kind of mother does that??!! After 13 years and after I had married my husband (who I had confided in) I finally got up the strength to seek help from Project Rachael with Catholic Charities. They saved my life! I had to face that I was a kid, alone, and that I was lied to "blood and cells".... no, no... it was my child!!! God always loved me and forgave me. I still struggle at times. Did I forgive myself? I don't think a ever will (completely). Forget.... NEVER!