My Name is Kathy. Thank you for allowing me to tell my story. In 1992 I found myself pregnant and alone. The young man that I was in a relationship with skipped out and denied any claims to my situation. So, being unwed and living at home, I went to my mother. I was sent to a doctor to confirm the pregnancy and an abortion was scheduled at the nearest clinic. I feel like when looking back on it , it's almost as a dream. Picketers lining the sidewalks. Being herded in like cattle. A room full of half-dressed, numb, and under the influence of some little pill girls. Wanting to get up and just feeling like there wasn't any other option. Years later I completed nursing school. I was working in the PACU in our operating room. I was called in to recover a D&E. When getting there, I find out that the young lady was about as far long in her pregnancy as I was when I had my abortion. "It is a blob of tissue," they said, "Nothing recognizable." I always wonder, why didn't one of those picketers just talk to me. Reach out and talk instead of screaming at you and shoving graphic pictures on a stick in your face. This procedure in the OR that evening was to remove an ectopic pgnancy, which can be life threatening. When the fallopian tube's contents were placed in front of me on the mayo stand, I could hardly believe my eyes. I saw a baby. A vey tiny, fully formed baby. I saw a face, two ears, and tiniest hands and feet that I had ever seen. My first thought was, "What have I done?!" Immediately I thought, "they all lied."
Well, that was many years ago. I have given my sin to God who has graciously forgiven me. I think about it often, always "what if?" Was it a boy or girl? Wonder what kind of person would he/she have been? Without God, I would have never gotten through it. I just wish that I was given all of the information that was available. It seemed one sided at best. My mother even deals with it too. She said,"that was my grandchild."
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