- Posted February 10, 2013 by
This iReport is part of an assignment:
Have you had an abortion?
I was a married woman
I was a married woman when I was 25 years old and I got pregnant. I liked the life I was living and the job I had, and didn’t want it to change. I was staunchly pro-‘choice’, and had an abortion because I thought it was an inconvenient time for me to have a baby.
I was anesthetized during my abortion, but I do remember what my doctor looked like before he started the procedure. I will never forget his face. I also remember waking up in a room full of women who didn’t look relieved or happy about what just happened. While laying there, and ever afterwards, I KNEW what I had done was the wrong thing to do.
But I justified it with many selfish lame excuses and pushed the guilt down inside me as far as I could. My marriage didn’t last for many years after that.
As time went on after the abortion I was afraid I would get pregnant again, so I went on birth control and told myself I didn’t ever want children, because feelings of guilt and shame over killing my baby caused me to think that I wouldn’t be a good mother.
I never had any more children, and I regret it to this day.
I was lied to about how abortion gives me control and freedom of choice.
All I got from it was 17 years of heavy bondage to feelings of remorse and shame.
I found help and forgiveness through sharing my story with others and I am very grateful that I was healed by the Lord’s unending grace.
If “abortion is okay ”, than why did so many of us feel such shame, and keep it hidden in our lives for so long?
Abortion is NOT okay, and I want people to know the truth. That truth is that the baby isn’t the only victim in abortion. The mothers, fathers and grandparents all lose when someone exercises their “right of choice”.