- Posted February 12, 2013 by
Portland Oregon, Oregon
This iReport is part of an assignment:
Have you had an abortion?
Silent No More
I felt I was lied to, because I was told it was a fetus, it was tissue, but deep down inside I knew it wasn't. I just wanted to believe it, these were adults, they knew better, right? It was my choice; however, it was the worst and the wrong choice I have ever made. As I went into the abortion clinic, I asked to see the ultrasound, and there was the baby. As I was rolled into the room for the procedure to begin, I was already crying. I was already asking for forgiveness for what I was going to do. I wish I could go back and run out of that place. But, I can't. It makes me really sad to know how selfish I was and how I chose to give up my child. I was 9 weeks pregnant and I wish I was told how developed my baby was already, but I wasn't. There were many things that I wasn't told about or simply chose not to listen, but this choice has hurt a lot. After the abortion, it would make me sad to see a baby or a pregnant woman. Even hearing a baby cry still chokes me up to this day.
I'm now 26 years old and coping with my decision. I say coping, because nobody realizes that I lost a child. I didn’t just lose him/her, I chose to let him die with my decision. It’s wrong, how many parents would just let their child go like that? I think about how many parents would fight for their child to live, and I did not.