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    Posted February 12, 2013 by
    Fort Wayne, Indiana
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    Have you had an abortion?

    I regret my abortion!

    I was 19 yrs old and just been Honorably Discharged from the Army. I was pregnant by a married man and felt like I had no where to turn. I was two months pregnant when I arrived home from Germany with nothing but the clothes on my back.
    I wasn't sure what I was going to do about the baby because I had no job and no health insurance. I considered other options but it wasn't until my mother had went through her abortion that I had really sat down and consider abortion as an option.
    So, here I was now three months pregnant taking my mom to have an abortion and still not sure what I was going to do. After taking my mother to her abortion, I started calling around to abortion clinics because I felt as though I had no other options because I wasn't even sure the baby I carried was healthy. I was completely disconnected from my baby.
    I called a number of Indiana clinics but no clinics would do an abortion if you are 12 wks a long or longer. So I started calling states. I felt like I had to hurry and be done with it. I was able to find a clinic in Niles MI that did abortions up to 16 wks a long. I set the appointment up for that friday.
    When I arrived there, I filled out all the paper work and put down half the money for the abortion. I had to do this to hold my appointment for the next day. Once that was handled the nurse then took to see the doctor. The doctor informed me, my abortion would be a two step process. Step one included putting a seaweed suppository that would have to stay in overnight and step two would be the actual procedure.
    After a night of excruciating pain, I went back to the clinic to have the abortion. I can't believe the sound of the machine starting up. It was so loud. As I am laying there and having the doctor doing this abortion I remember yelling "please stop, I change my mind" and the doctor responding with "quiet! If you keep yelling no one else will want to do this!" I thought to myself "good if I can stop one woman from going through this pain, then I am okay with that." I remembered getting up from the procedure and feeling very disconnected from myself and being numb from head to toe.
    I never want anyone to go through what I went through and that is why I speak out about my abortion. It was never worth no matter how my baby would have turned out.

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