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    Posted February 12, 2013 by
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    No Longer Bound

    While growing up in Los Angeles I was raised by my loving grandparents; my grandfather meant the world to me especially since he loved me unconditionally. My mother was married to a man that I was led to believe was my father, a man who was devoid of showing love or affection. After the death of my grandfather my life became empty. You see, I knew what real love was supposed to look like and when I was given the opposite model which included rejection, loneliness, unworthiness, and family secrets, my life began to self-destruct which led me to spiral out of control.

    While looking for love in all the wrong places during my teenage years I thought I could somehow find it by having sex; what I found was an unplanned pregnancy at the tender age of fifteen. My mother was a strict Catholic; I was the eldest of three girls; and there was no way I could disappoint my family and risk being an outcast. Consumed by fear, I could not keep my baby.
    I aborted my beautiful daughter – a God-given gift. I allowed Satan – the enemy of darkness, to trick me into thinking that abortion was the right and only choice I had to make; surely it would solve all of my problems, only to realize I would be presented with a whole new set of challenges which would last for thirty years. I was dying inside due to the pain that was too deep to explain. I suffered from low self-esteem, verbal/physical abusive relationships, and drug and alcohol use.

    In early 2011, my aunt invited me to attend Love and Unity Christian Fellowship Church. I gave my life to Christ that day. Upon returning to the church two weeks later I saw an announcement in the church bulletin about No Longer Bound – Abortion Recovery Ministry. In my mind I thought I could help someone especially since I had been down the same path. I attended the luncheon presentation to hear the ministry team discuss the impact of abortion; and I listened to every word spoken by former group participants as they gave their testimonials about how Christ set them free from the bondage of abortion. I later realized I was the one in need of help so I signed-up to attend the 13-week Bible study group.

    No Longer Bound is a ministry that provides healing by using biblical truth and the guidance of the Holy Spirit. The process is painful yet necessary; and the ugliness of the past is dealt with gently. When I came to the realization that I actually murdered my child I was devastated. Jesus sacrificed and shed His precious blood for all sins. God has turned my pain into sunshine. He is healing and walking with me every moment to become the saint He created me to be.
    I will no longer allow darkness and my flesh to lie to me – it is bondage. I turned my will over to God and it has led me to operate in obedience, self-control, and discipline. God blessed me with a sisterhood as a result of this ministry; I am stronger; able to stand on His word; and am transparent about my struggles. Through the highs and the lows this ministry has always been at the beck and call of the participants for listening and prayer.

    My testimony is the spiritual life journey of how Satan tried to destroy me. God is all power and has turned something so horrific into greatness. My name from now on is Ms. Transparency; I am an ambassador of bonds for God; I will speak the truth of my life to help save a soul and life from being captured into darkness. This world is a temporary place – which way do you choose to operate? You can choose who you want to serve: Abba Our Heavenly Father God Almighty or Satan (darkness).

    God is real and He wants to get to the core of the things that cause us great pain, suffering, and destruction. I pray that my testimony touches my sisters and brothers to seek God and accept Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior.

    Love, peace and blessings,
    Mrs. Eleen “Ms. Transparency” Hupf
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