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Have you had an abortion?
I Felt My Baby Soul Leaving My Body..
Abortion May, 1989
When I was 17, I placed a daughter up at birth for adoption. By the age of 21, I was married with a 2 year old daughter and going through a divorce. During my divorce I allowed myself to become pregnant. I was raising 1 child and didn't know how I would afford another child. After talking with a friend and the father of my unborn child, I decided that a Abortion would solve the problem. The next day I went in for a abortion. I can remember feeling so Unsure and Afraid.I ask the lady behind the desk if it was a baby yet and would it feel anything. She told me that it wasn't anything yet and it wouldn't feel anything. She told me my problem would be over in 20 minutes. It has been 20years. I still remember how the abortionist told me it wouldn't be painful. He lied!! It HURT EMOTIONALLY and PHYCIALLY. I remember the long needle and being told to be Very still and the intense pain when the needle was inserted to my cervix. When the machine started, I remember a nurse asking me not to look. I didn't need to see, I felt Everything. I realized it was my baby The Very Second I Felt My Baby Soul Leaving My Body. I remember crying and wanted to die because I just Killed my baby. After it was done I got up telling myself everything was all right. I turned to Drinking and Drugs, trying to drown out the memory of killing my unborn child. I got down to a dangerous 88 pounds and not caring about anything. I went through a Bible study called "Forgiven and Set Free" where God's Word healed my heart. I can now says I have been Forgiven by the Lord and I forgive myself. I No longer walk in the shame and guilt that I walked so many years alone. I have to speak out to let women and men know they are not alone.There is Hope and Healing. There still is a deep sadness and loss, for my baby who Never had a chance in life. Through the Lord Jesus Christ, I hold my head up to speak out How abortion Hurts Women, Men and Children
I am with a group Operation Outcry. We are women and men speaking out about how abortion hurts women, men and children. I speak out in love and truth on how abortion hurt me.Please visit the website.