- Posted February 13, 2013 by
This iReport is part of an assignment:
Have you had an abortion?
The Worst Choice of my Life
My procedure was a saline abortion, I was given an injection and told to come back when I was in labor. I had no idea what would happen next. I was left on a gurney in a ultilty closet in a hospital. With an iv in my arm and the rails up.
I was sleeping and woke up with the need to go to the bathroom. I called out, no one was around and the door was closed. I pulled the iv off my arm, climbed over the rails.
When I stood up, my formed baby fell to the floor. I passed out and woke up in a regualr room on the maturnity floor.
The next day, I was released to go home and back to school. My first day back to school, I started to hemmorage. I went to the school nurse and when she looked at me bleeding, she immediately asked, did you have an abortion.
The amblience took me to the local hosptial, but after examination, they would not treat me, since it was a result of the abortion and sent me to the hospital that did the abortion.
I was packed with gauze, given fluid, and I think a d&c and then told to go home and stay off my feet for a day or two.
After my abortion, I felt dead inside, and my periods became unnormal and often very heavy.
At 17 I misscarried my 2nd child at 3 months and at 19 my third child at 4 months. My husband and I were told that I would prpbaly not carry to full term. My uteruine wall was weak.
a fews years later, I was told I needed a surgery. I had started bleeeding for months and when it became almost a year, i agreed to have the surgery. I was too weak to do anything else.
At age 24, i had a complete Hysterectomy, due to what they called Endometria.
I was told, my follopian tubes were 99.9% blocked.
The abortion experience I had, I would never want another person to see or experience the shock and pain that came from "we can help you" now called the choice". My baby dead on the cold hard floor.
After dealing with the anger, and all the addictions that came with that as a teen, I am free! God set me free in my late twentys.
At 54 now, I am still sadden by this choice and wonder what would I have done if given a choice for life, rather then being told, you do not want to be aburden on your family or the state, we will take care of this for you.
The only good thing from this is that what happened to me has given me a voice with those who come to the minsitry I work in and can hear truth and hope. Those who come who made a choice for abortion can be forgiven as they are heard and given the truth as to heal.