- Posted February 15, 2013 by
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Have you had an abortion?
I never got over it
I went to the open door clinic by my high school and they said I should get an abortion. I wanted my baby and my boyfriend asked to marry me. I told my Mom that I could get married and have the baby. She said, "You are not marrying that boy and you are not having that baby." I did not want to make the appointment, so my Mom sent me to a shrink, who talked me into making the appointment from his office.
My Mom took me to the abortionist that day and sat in the waiting room. I was lying there on the table and when he started to dilate me I screamed STOP! He told the nurse to give me a shot while I was holding my stomach crying. She put me out and when I woke up I was in another room alone. I was bleeding and my back hurt. I was not ever the same after that. I broke up with my boyfriend, got into drugs and started to sleep around. I did not care about myself anymore. I felt bad about life and did not want my life. I never got pregnant again and I hated my Mom for a long time for her selfishness it still hurts deeply that she did not want to help me to have my baby, or let me marry. The strange thing is that my Mom’s Mom had her when she was sixteen and married my Grandfather after she got pregnant. When I realized that I could not have children anymore I asked my Mother why we did not give my child up for adoption at least, and she said that she couldn’t have done that. I missed out on being a Mom and a Grandmother. I lost my child to abortion January 30, 1974 only one year after it was legalized. . I resent that abortion was legal so that I could be coerced into it.