- Posted February 15, 2013 by
This iReport is part of an assignment:
Have you had an abortion?
A Mother's Missing Child
Three years ago my 2 day old baby died. She was born at 31 weeks only weighing one pound. Her little body couldn't fight being so little. Part of her dying led me to some self guilt from my abortion. Not only did I lose an infant, I experienced multiple losses. I have had 9 miscarriages between 10-12 weeks, 2 stillbirths at 19 weeks, and 1 infant death. I did a lot of self-blamed over my past abortion. Two months after my daughter's death I went to the pregnancy care center to see if I could help with any moms grieving. Instead, God had other plans for me. One of the women at the center told me if I wanted to volunteer I had to take their Post-Abortion Bible study class. I figured God gave me this story for a reason so he was speaking to me now. I started the study with four other women. I was nervous about being there, was I being judged? But they were there for the same reason. We all had an abortion and we felt hurt, lost, confused, sinful, and had regret.
I now no longer blame myself. I help facilitate post-abortion bible studies. I found out during the study that I have an autoimmune disease to where my body fights off foreign objects- meaning my babies. Today I am grateful for my 2 living children and my 12 other children that are in heaven. There are so many that have had an abortion and have no healing. Abortion is the unspoken word. 1 in 4 women have had an abortion. I am grateful CNN is wanting to find out the long term effects abortion has on women.