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No One Told Me
On November 12, 1989 my husband and I ended the life of our child. At the time, we believed and was told that it was not yet a life, just a clump of cells. This was my life that I wanted to save and a future I had planned.
Oh, I deeply regret that day. But it took me ten years to realize that when I walked out of the clinic...one life had ended and another was wounded!
Yes, the feeling of loss if very real and it affected many areas in my life but there was one area that was affected the most and that was my relationship with my daughter, who was born four years later. I didn't know how to love her or even if I was worthy of loving her. How could I? I had stopped the life that was counting on me to protect him. I often wondered the things that he would accomplish, books he would have read, the smell of his skin and the lives he would have touched. This was a heavy burden that the clinic never told me I would carry.
For twelve years of my daughter's life she so desired to feel loved by her mother. The things I would say to her. There were times she would grab my hand and I would pull away and the list goes on.
Today, life is much different with the help
of counseling and the forgiveness of Jesus Christ. My relationship with my daughter has been healed and I use the "choice" I made to help others know the truth... Abortion is the action that is done to a human being!
Oh, I deeply regret that day. But it took me ten years to realize that when I walked out of the clinic...one life had ended and another was wounded!
Yes, the feeling of loss if very real and it affected many areas in my life but there was one area that was affected the most and that was my relationship with my daughter, who was born four years later. I didn't know how to love her or even if I was worthy of loving her. How could I? I had stopped the life that was counting on me to protect him. I often wondered the things that he would accomplish, books he would have read, the smell of his skin and the lives he would have touched. This was a heavy burden that the clinic never told me I would carry.
For twelve years of my daughter's life she so desired to feel loved by her mother. The things I would say to her. There were times she would grab my hand and I would pull away and the list goes on.
Today, life is much different with the help
of counseling and the forgiveness of Jesus Christ. My relationship with my daughter has been healed and I use the "choice" I made to help others know the truth... Abortion is the action that is done to a human being!
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