Today I had a dream of someone I lost. No he’s not dead, I just can’t find him. I haven’t been in a relationship in almost 2 years. I actually avoided it. Because I didn’t know where I was going to be in the next months or years and I figured I should spare myself the stress  from being emotionally hurt caused from long distance or separation. He was best friends with my friend. He just joined the university I finished from. He is a few months older than I am and I know he will be there for another year and half before he graduates. He told my friend he liked me. I never really noticed him because I figured it was one of those crushes. I saw him only when I bumped into him in school and all we said was hi and then bye. We started hanging out with him and my friend. I was drawn to his calm and free spirit. Tall and handsome. We laughed all the time. I found myself looking forward to his smiles and laughs. He twirled his curly hair all the time especially when he’s nervous or idle. He did that a lot when we were together. I took his number from my friend’s phone and I wrote him. I have never shown interest first. We texted everyday for 6 hours straight non stop. We were always laughing it was unbelievable. We always had fun. Then he got robbed and lost his phone. It took over a week to find him. He would visit me sometimes and we ate, watched movies, listened to music and most importantly laughed. We became best friends. He told me he loved me and I knew he meant it. I didn’t want to say it until I meant it. I told him I loved him 3 days later. But I never got a chance to tell him in person because he went to visit his family in another city. We talked and chatted all the time. It was like he was around the corner. He lost his phone again and all contacts. We have no mutual friends. My friend who is frinds with him can't find him too. No email etc. I bumped into him in school once but it was brief. I was in a hurry I was literally walk-running. Didn't have time to get a number. I haven’t seen him since then. I think about him everyday. I have walked around his school so many times hoping to see him somewhere. Anywhere. I would sometimes stay in the school for hours but no luck. I wonder if he’s ok. If he’s happy. I recently found him on face book but I know he hasn’t checked his face book in years. I’m positive he can’t remember his password. But I still wrote him a message and left my contact information. I left the country we met and currently working in another place. I know the reality is I may never find him ever or see him ever again. But I still love him. Deeply love him. And I rather miss and love him than fall in love with anyone else