As I read the Supreme Court of the United States’ decision not to hear my Pro-Se Writ of Certiorari petition I burst out in loud cries of anguish and disbelief. I cried out to God in pain and utter disappointment.

I understood the reality that the Court reviews less than 100 of the approximately 8,000 cases each year. What I didn’t understand was the fact that my case wasn’t one of the cases selected for review. I didn’t understand because after I filed my Title VII of the Civil Rights Act of 1964, as amended (employment discrimination) lawsuit God told me “You will be victorious in this matter.” I believed God because with God nothing is impossible.

How would I live when the foundation of faith received a fatal blow? How could I go on with my life after experiencing such an unjust decision? How could I function in a world were lies prevail over the truth? I didn’t know what to think or what to do. I felt like a complete failure because I no longer had a job or the hope of receiving justice in my lawsuit. I lapsed into something deeper than depression.

Vera Richardson

Author of Screwed by Former Governor and Attorney General Eliot Spitzer