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    Posted May 5, 2013 by
    Danbury, Connecticut
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    Your 'Aha' weight-loss moments

    My Weight Loss Story

    I was fat from childhood until the age of 54 and as such was exposed to the assumptions and attitudes which fat people know all too well. In the late ‘80s and early ‘90s I was Publicity Chair and then Co-Chair of the Connecticut Chapter of NAAFA, a human rights and activism organization which I had joined in 1973 when I was 20. My last big weight loss was at age 21. It took me from 230 pounds down to 180, and then I rebounded to 250. It was so torturous that I decided never to do that again. More of that would have inevitably brought me to a much higher setpoint weight. As it was, I hovered around 250 for more than three decades.

    This time has been different. I never set out to be smaller. It just happened, gradually over the course of five years, as a side-effect of the intensity of my meditation. At present I’m a meditator of the it-never-stops type. I don’t feel hunger, I don’t get tired, and it’s likely that I’ve also lost the need for gratification which most people call lust.

    People who are naturally thin often believe that people who are naturally fat eat a lot. Perhaps some do. I did not. Now my daily intake averages between 600 and 800 calories. The meditation means that I don’t suffer from terrible hunger or a feeling of deprivation. But I have no doubt that most “successful” dieters do endure that. And it does not seem fair to me that they should have to go through that in order to be “acceptable”. I doubt that most naturally thin people would willingly endure a regimen that’s similar to mine.

    Being thin feels odd. It’s as though I’m a stranger in my own body. And it has given me a front row seat to hear the comments which are made about fat people by someone who doesn’t realize that a big fat guy is standing right next to them. I knew that the bigotry was there, certainly, but I didn’t fully appreciate how hate-filled it can be. It’s really just like all forms of bigotry: racism, homophobia, xenophobia, religious intolerance, nationalism, and even political segmentation. Bigotry is always a judgment against another person, and as such it is a barrier to understanding that we’re all interconnected. It prevents love and forgiveness. It reinforces fear and hatred.

    I’m still an activist in opposition to anti-fat bigotry. On June 2nd 2012 I staged an activism/consciousness-raising event in the food court of a local mall. But that’s another story.
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